Love, Ysa

Insecurities

My first story is very close to my heart because I wrote that while I was feeling down. Yshanna and I have a lot of commons. 

I grew up being that one who is not pansinin. I don't know but whenever I looked at myself in the mirror, I always thought of one word.

Pangit.

My relatives would always compare me to my younger sister. I admit that she's really pretty. My friends and classmates would always tell me, Mas maganda kapatid mo sa'yo! Others would even asked me, Magkapatid talaga kayo?

Whenever I heard those things, my self esteem that I was trying to build would always wreck.

I was never confident. Heck, I never loved my body. I just couldn't. My height never reached 5 feet. I have a flat nose. My skin is not fair. I feel like lahat nalang ng pangit nasa akin na.

I never experienced being liked by someone. I never experienced receiving flowers. It just never did happen.

But there's one time that I got very closed with some guy in our class. He made me feel... special. I really thought we have something that time. But there wasn't. Napaasa ako.

That's why I was contemplating whether to entertain his chats or not. But being the uto girl that I am, I entertained him. We chatted for days. It was actually the 4th day.

I told him that I have lots of insecurities. That I am not confident with my grades. But you know what he told me?

Bawasan mo pagiging nega. Be confident.

And I... kinda appreciated that.