overthinking

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My brain is a never ending void of thoughts and anxiety
I can't imagine a night where I easily fall asleep and stay asleep.
It seems impossible to have any interactions without later ridiculing myself and doubting every word.
I could never  look in the mirror without thinking about everything that could look better.
Thoughts of pain and abuse on myself interrupt my every waking thought.
Sadness and want prodding at my insides.
I an overthinker amongst many other  things, but it's my thoughts that scare me the most.
YoU lOOk SO stUPid
So UgLy
FAt
DumB
YoU sOuND LIke aN IDIOt
yoU cAN NeVer AcHIeve ANYthing
NoBOdY CaRes
EvERyboDY hAtES yOU
HE neVer LOVEd you
UnLOVEaBle
LAzY
AwkwARD
USEleSs

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