The Game of Love

Chapter 11: The Monsters In My Head

Janelle's P.o.v:

its been about a week since that conflict with Lynn. Ever since that day I've felt different. No one seems to notice though. i now wake up int the middle of the night screaming from the nightmares I've been getting. i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm starting to hear these voices in my head and i can't get rid of them, I moved out of my house; i didn't want Evelyn or gabby seeing me like this. i keep getting these ugly thoughts in my head. To make it worse Ross is now home schooled, everyone's mean tome now and i mean everyone. i try to avoid my sisters and my friends cause i'm afraid that if i am with them they'll be able to tell somethings wrong and i don't want their pity. i know its not cause of Lynn cause i could care less about her but i don't know what it is i think something snapped...i refuse to tell Ross about any of this because i don't want him worrying about me so i have decided to just hide everything that's been happening, i do doubt that my sisters know what's going on though or else they would of called or texted but nothing. Ross has been super sweet this week; i think he knows somethings wrong or either he still is sorry for what happened to me even though it wasn't his fault.

Anyways i'm currently walking to school wearing my hair up with a black sweater and some shorts with my converse. i walk in and Immediately find everyone staring at me nasty. i put my head down avoiding eye contact and walk straight to my locker. i grabbed my books and i feel my body colliding with the metal lockers i look to see John some guy who has started messing with me he had a satisfied grin on his face "where's your boyfriend now huh freak!" he says getting in my face "answer me when i'm fucking talking to you!" i look up killing him through my eyes as i hear people laughing from behind him then i start to feel a sharp pain in my cheek. shocked i raise my hand to feel my cheek as he walks away laughing like if he was proud of what he just did.

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it's now lunch and i'm at my locker looking through my phone when someone walks up next to me i look to see Gabby.. she looked pretty upset "hey gabby" i say almost as a whisper. "don't 'hey gabby' me why are you avoiding me and Evelyn?" i looked down never meeting her eyes "no reason" i whisper i didn't want to tell her "Bullshit" i look up to see her eyes glaring daggers at me. i frowned i don't need my sister and best friend to hate me as well. i tried calming her down as she kept on rambling on on how horrible i am for avoiding them because she started yelling and sooner or later i ended up on the floor with her on top still yelling. my soul drained my body once i saw her lift up a fist. please no God don't do this and as if on cue i felt the all to familiar pain run through my body as i tried covering my face while I also trying to get her off of me. i didn't want to hurt her she was my sister for crying out loud; i just wish she felt the same. i soon started to cry as i started to loose myself.

all of a sudden it stopped and i was still silently crying for the fact that my sister now hates me. i open my eyes to see gabby looking at her hands then at me with wide eyes and she started shaking her head as she got off of me "no Janelle I'm sorry i didn't mean it i swear" her eyes started to get watery i quickly stood up and ran straight out the school as i hear hear yelling she's sorry.

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i ran straight home slamming the door shut and sliding against it completely bawling. those voices started to appear in my head again and i soon felt it hard to breath. i was hyperventilating as the voices grew louder. i started to claw my hands at my head praying for it to stop.

my phone started ringing. i looked at the caller id to see 1 text message from gabby and 3 from Ross. i threw my phone across the room. i couldn't take it anymore i started trashing everything yelling stop at the top of my lungs i was going crazy and it was killing me. my whole living room was a mess everything was broken, ripped, on the floor. absentmindedly i ran to the kitchen looking through all my draws looking for something, i didn't know what but as soon as my eyes laid on it i knew.

it was a blade...

Ross' P.O.V.

i was in my living room watching some t.v. with my siblings as mom and dad went to the store. i got a text from gabby.

G: Ross i did something horrible

R: Gabby?

G: it's about Janelle

R: gabby what'd you do?

G: i can't explain right now but can you text Janelle i think there's something wrong with her

R: what do u mean?

G: Ross please

R: alright

i exited out and went to messages labled 'My JULIET <3' and texted 'everything alright princess' i put down my phone kind of worried what happened at school today? i couldn't even focus knowing somethings wrong with my Juliet. i picked up my phone and texted her again i needed her to respond 'bby?' i looked at my screen for what seemed like forever and now i was getting paranoid 'Juliet answer you're scaring me :( '

still nothing, i locked my phone and stood up "what's up?" riker says as i get my car keys "something wrong with Juliet and I'm getting worried so I'm going to her house to see if she is alright" and with that i ran out

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i park my car and my heart stops as i see her front door wide open please let her be alright i ran inside yelling for her "Janelle! baby please answer you're worrying me" that was an understatement i was completely freaking out, her whole house was trashed. after going upstairs to see it empty i go in the kitchen to see something that made my heart stop.

my baby was curled up in a corner asleep with a tear stained face and her wrists and thighs all bloody i looked down to see something in her hand i walk up to her unconscious figure and open up her hand to see a blade its like my world was crashing down in one day

why would she do this?

i cupped my hand around her cheek rubbing it softly my poor baby i kissed her forehead and started to lightly shake her awake. i stared as she slowly opened her eyes then almost instantly she inhaled a deep breath as she quickly scooted herself away from me, her eyes starting to water up again.

i got closer "shh baby don't cry what's the matter?" i didn't want to confront her on why i see what i saw because my poor girl looks to broken to talk. i wrap my arms around her carrying her bridle style as she clings to my neck crying her pretty little eyes out.

i walk into the bathroom with my baby still in my arms; i sit her down on the sink counter and make her a bath. i stand up straight as i'm done making her bath and walk up to my fallen little angel and stand between her legs. we didn't need to talk, nothing needed to be said. i slowly raise up her shirt being careful to not touch her red stained arms. and throw it in the hamper as i start to pull down her shorts leaving her in her under garments. i look her up and down wanting to cry at the view of my baby looking broken and vulnerable. i slowly help her take off her bra along with her panties and carry her to the tub and she looks at me with her red puffy eyes "the waters going to hurt" i give her a sad smile and kiss her forehead whispering an 'i know' . i gently place her in the tub, i got up to get a cup from her kitchen so i can wash her. as i get back to the bathroom i see my baby with her knees in her chest playing in the water. i sit back down and scoop some water up into the cup and start pouring it on her rinsing out all the blood off her skin making the water go a bright red.

After i had finished washing her i wrapped her up in a towel and carried her to the bedroom yeah i know im treating her like a baby but she's my baby and she's broken so i need and want to i grab her a pair of underwear and one of my shirts she has kept. after she was dressed we just started cuddling on her bed as i whispered soothing words into her ear.

"you don't need to tell me what happened if you don't want to"

A/N: sorry i haven't updated in a bit but to make up for it here is a long chapter i hope you guys like it.

i lost my phone at McDonald's and its hard to update on my tablet i wrote this on my computer and I'm currently on my computer so yeah. but expect more chapters during these next 3 weeks.