NEVER2MUCH ; "Never Enough Sequel"

3 - "ON2U"

"So how you been feeling?"

"I've been feeling okay. I had fun last night with Wynter and her friends. They're good-looking girls with their head on straight. I like them."

"That's good to know. Look sweetie, this has been on my mind heavy, but are you sure about having this baby? I just don't feel like you're taking this pregnancy serious. Do you want to keep it?"

"I don't know mom...I really...don't know."

"Time is rolling. You need to figure it out baby, this is a whole tiny human growing inside of you. I'm going to support whatever decision you make but you need to make one."

"It's just so hard mama. Kason did me so dirty and having his child is just...it makes me feel soo..I don't know. I know it's not the baby's fault but constantly having flashbacks on that night of him beating Alex and pointing that gun in my face just brings back so much PTSD. The night he got shot at prom, seeing Alex wreck. It's all too traumatic. I've been stressed like crazy and Lord knows I've been tempted to sm—never mind. I just need some ease here."

"Tempted to what?! Kayla, don't you fucking dare smoke or drink shit with that baby in you!!"

"I'm not mama! But my anxiety and PTSD is driving me insane! I've been sooo stressed. I can't take any medication because I'm pregnant. I have nothing to ease my pain. I'm drowning in misery."

"Listen baby, if you want to come back home, I totally understand. I'm here for you through whatever, so let me help you."

"Ma...you know how much this school means to me. I worked so hard for this scholarship. I don't wanna give that up so easily."

"I know baby, but you're an adult now and you have important decisions to make. And another thing, you seriously think Alex doesn't know you're pregnant? Of course a young man like him wouldn't be able to tell right off the back but y'all are always around each other. You're just lucky you're so fit and skinny that you're not showing like other women at four months but eventually he's going to notice. What are you going to tell him? And you damn sure better not tell him its his baby, I won't allow it."

"I wouldn't dare!"

"I'm just saying Kayla. I don't want no drama."

"I'm going to figure this out. Give me a week," I quickly hurry off the phone. She's making me think too much right now and my brain is fried from just...life.

My problem is, I want to live my life exactly how I planned; going to college, being with Alex, turning the fuck up, enjoying life all without carrying a baby in my stomach. I feel like it's always something stopping me from enjoying life with Alex. Got rid of Kason, got rid of Malaysia and boom, now here's a baby. I can never be great!

The way I'm feeling right now, I'm honestly and truly considering abortion because why keep a baby I know I don't want? I'm not gone sit here and lie to myself like I'm ready to be a parent. A single parent at that! I'm not going to waste me or this baby's time. I already know I'm not going to be serious so why bring a child into this world that I know deep down, I regret.

"Or when you tell him, you make it seem like you just found out too. So it won't seem like you've been lying all this time," Wynter suggests.

"You know what...you're actually right. I didn't think of it that way," I hesitate. But I'm too scared to even tell him, ugh!

"Just stick with that, but dude, guess what I got a taste for?"

"What?"

"Donuts!"

"Oh wow, really? At a time like this?"

"What you mean at a time like this? Hell yea! Let's go on a donut date," she squeals.