chapter 19: I'm not her

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I take a deep breath and nod to whatever Marrisa was saying. It's been two days since Blake's and Dom's fight.

After the conversation between me and Blake that day I didn't talk to him I denied to whatever he said I wanted to believe him but I didn't.

Flash back

I shake my head "No, he can't do that, he didn't say that." I say more to myself.

"you are not understanding Bella he said that....ask Madison." my eyes shot up to see his dull blue in shock.

"M-madison." I shutter and he nods.

"yes, dom said to her that he will claim you that you are his." he said and I belived that he said that because the way he talks to me.
"and i couldn't hear that." he said

It makes sense cause today when I was with Blake in the car he quickly asked Blake to drive when it had been just 20 minutes since he started driving.

And Madison suddenly asked me if I like Blake and she said she will support me with whatever decision I make.

"why?? " I ask, why can't he hear some Shit people talk about me.

"b-because I-i....i don't know how to say this I am not prepared." he says Shit is he going to say that he likes me

What if he does?? I can't say that back to him, if I do like him I wouldn't admit it to him, I can't I won't.

He opens his mouth but I cut him off "because I am your friend." I say and he looks hurt I didn't want to say that but I did I also can't come between him and Alexa.

I don't want to be the third wheel. Even if I like Blake I can't admit it because I am not worth it

"no-" he tries to deny.

"No Blake, I don't think this going to work." I say shit I shouldn't have said that....what the hell is not going to work out

"what?? " he asks confused and hurt.

"o-our friendship won't work Blake I can't be friends with you anymore I just can't." I regret as soon as those words left my mouth.

"but Bella-" he starts

"no Blake it won't." I shout....i really don't want to do this but I have to, I don't have a choice "Blake you know I don't want to be here, I don't want to be in this position."

"angel lis-"

"I think that was your last time calling me angel. " I say and tears left my eyes and his eyes looked kinda glossy like he is holding back his tears.

He is standing stunded on his place. I can't see him like this. This is all my fault, everyone gets hurt because if me, now Blake too. I shouldn't be with anyone.

"bye, Blake." I say and walk past him and he doesn't even tries to stop me, like he is still in Shock because of my words

I am sorry Blake but I am not her.

End of flashback

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