Torned Pages

Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3: THE END

HANNAH

While I was looking down and crying, I took a deep breath and stopped sobbing and faced him again and I just stared at him with my emotionless face for like forever. But eve inf I'm not showing it, I'm still shocked by how he guessed that I thought that he was a thief or a serial killer. Yes I'm just staring at him but my mind is racing with questions only this guy can answer. Maybe this guy has super powers ? Mind reader?

Now as you can see I'm becoming crazy with my own thoughts. And probably I will talk to myself and say "You're crazy little Hannah Willows." in the back of my head.

Even if I had lots of questions I chose to stay quiet and just stare at him without making any noise neither saying any words.

But my knees are now trembling and my head felt dizzy and my eyes saw the world's gonna go upside down and spinning along the corner of my eyes. So I planned to close the door so I can sit.

Maybe this is the side effects of not eating for days. Even if Anna always brought me foods, I never bothered to open my door just to get them. I drink water, but I just don't have the appetite to eat. I can't feel hunger anymore.

As my head become more dizzy and I'm about to fall, my hands travelled to the door knob and with all my strength, I slammed it. But before my butt hit the floor I heard a loud shout.

" OUCHHHHHH!"

And then felt the floor in my butt. Yeah I fell to the floor yet I didn't feel any pain. I slowly turned my head to look at the door and to find out why he shouted. The moment my eyes laid on the door I saw a foot stucked into it. It took me a moment to realize what should I do. So with the kindness left in my heart for this cruel world, my hands travelled to the door knob and I slowly opened the door so it won't hurt him. After I opened it he took his feet and held it as if he was hugging it. I looked at him even if I really feel dizzy at this moment. I managed to look at him straight. His face was kinda red so maybe that really hurts.

"Yeah that really do hurts." he said while laughing. I got confused again. Did he just read my mind again? Shut up you idiot mind there's no such things as mind reading. That is just a normal approach after your foot is stuck in the door. After hugging his feet he cleared  his throat and stood up straight and manly then looked at me straight in the eyes. Yet looked down again. I can sense that he's nervous.

"B- by the way, the truth why I knocked on your room for like a hundred times because there's a CCTV in the corner of your room and I saw you, holding a rope while crying. Your dad  mom and brother wasn't around so I became worried and thought that you may , you know... " He said very fast while his eyes is wondering around and he has this really worried tone.

"Commit Suicide." We both said it while looking straight to each other's eyes. I saw his eyes widened. And when he was about to say something again, my hand travels to the door knob and finally closed it without his feet being stuck again. And locked it so that I won't be disturbed by this foolish guy.

He knocked again, but this time he trippled the speed and sound of it. And finally even if I'm dizzy I made the greatest decision of my life, to end it.

Trying my best not to fall I walked in a straight line to the drawer. I opened it and took the rope. I hugged it then I cried the very last moment then finally with a strong will I decided to do this and never look back. I heard the knocks becoming louder and faster yet I didn't even looked at the door. I took my chair then carefully stepped on it.While I'm tying the rope tightly into the ceiling, I can hear him say some inspirational words of wisdom that probably wouldn't change my mind.

"Miss open this up. Listen to me first. I'm a new guard here in your home, and I had sworn to protect everyone in this household. So I need to save you too! " he said this with a calm yet worried voice. Like what I'm supposed to do, I ignored his nonsense words then continued with what I am doing. I stepped to the floor again ang walk to the night stand to take my mommy's picture. Then I heard his annoying voice again.

" Miss please listen! Whatever you are planning to do please don't do it. Listen to me! After the rain there's always a rainbow. After all of your sorrows there's a time that you'll be happy again please just don't end your life. Please don't put the end in your own book!" he said and this time he is shouting loudly. And he started kicking the door. But I ignored what he had said and doing right now and proceeded in continuing what I am doing.

The rope was finally tied tightly to the ceiling and I step up the chair again and tied the rope to my neck. My body is trembling, my heart is still beating fast and my breath is still wasn't gone but I'm gonna end it all now. There's nothing stopping me.

I hugged the picture of my mom tightly even if my hands are now trembling in fear. I don't know why I'm frightened but I already made my decision and no fear of mine can stop me from doing this. I closed my eyes tightly. And I heard the last words I can hear from him.
" Please Stop! Dont do this. I'll glue your torned pages just please don't end your book." he said in frustration.

I smiled.

But I won't stop now.I remembered all the happy memories I had in this world. I went to the previous pages on my book and my decision on commiting suicide becomes final. Now with all the strength I have left in my body, I pushed the chair with my feet and finally I hanged my self.

I can't breathe. My heartbeat is gradually slowing. I can see myself gasping for air. I cand feel my neck becoming numb and I can see my lips slowly turning violet.

And with my last breath, I whispered,

" Is this the End ?"

Then the last drop of my tears fell.