Hey, my love. I bet you are struggling right now, yea? You felt down, alone, and just plainly empty. Every night, any minute in the day, your tears are streaming down because of the thoughts you couldn't get off of your head. They are just so many that it could not send you off to sleep.
I bet you are doubting your worth or the purpose of you living, but you should not. You are so worth it. You actually deserve more. Find your purpose, my love.
Can you go somewhere quiet? Trust me, my love.
Now, seat anywhere you will be comfortable on. When you are at it, I want you to smile and remember all the pain and its cause/s. All the person who left, the disappointments they think you've done, all the blame pointed on you, everything that shattered and broke you. Think of it all.
Hold the thought and cry if you wanted to.
Just release it all, my love.
Take your time. Endure it again at this moment.
While reminiscing the bad things, keep the smile, please?
Now, I want you to look back at the happy moments, the good memories you have before you got into the darkness.
Remember how sweet your smile that time. Remember how happy can you get. Remember how interested they are to you. Remember the way they made you feel loved. Remember all the good times then sent yourself, slowly, back to the sad times.
Cry it out loud if you feel like it. Just cry, no one will judge you. I will wait until you are done. You can close your eyes and utter a prayer until you are then fine.
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Are you okay now, my love?
Silly me, I know you are not. But, you will be.
Clear your mind now, my love.
I am not in the shoe you are on. We have different struggles. We felt different kind of pain. We have different emotional capacity. We are not as strong or weak. We are different in many ways, you know where we will be similar? It's we both will grow.
Maybe right now it is hard to move on from everything but today, start the change in your life, my love.
God gave you heavy loads to train your soul to be strong, for you heart to be good, for your mind to be open, for you to learn. He will always be there for you. Don't lose that faith, my love.
Experience is the best teacher, yea? Think of it like you are self-studying. Life is the lesson you couldn't understand that is why the pain is repeatedly given to you until you can solve it yourself.
Growing is a process.
You're too young to give up. You're too young to wish for someone who'll stay with you. You're too young not to prove yourself.
Love yourself, my love.
You will have all the happiness you deserve once he, God, knows you can handle hardships well.
Life is just readying you for the worse, so you will be better.
Keep growing. Keep praying. Keep smiling. Keep loving yourself because I... love you.
– Love, Lav.
