My love, have you ever experienced being overwhelmingly happy for a whole day, week, or month and suddenly felt like something is inconveniently wrong? Then you'll purposely think what it is, figuring out the reason, leading you to overthink.
A single unknown thought of sadness ruined the rest of your supposedly blissful moment. So stressing...
Anyway, how did you deal with it?
As for me, before I opened my mind to all the possibilities and struggles a life could brought on me, I was hesitant; uneasy; cramming over little things, simply speaking, paranoid.
I'd asked myself if the people around loves me, if am I really belong or just trying to fit in, if am I enough, so on and so forth.
I have figured, 'my mindset is kind of ... toxic.'
Upon refreshing my soul and reflecting, I discovered something unnecessary necessarily for me to know, it is 'there's a dump in my head, making me trash thinker.' You read it right, my love.
Unnecessary random thoughts which I prefer to make a big deal afore is certainly the main source of perplexity. Therefore, as we converse, yours truly is calming herself, arguing with her my mind, dealing with the complexity of today and smiling proudly because after a long journey she had been, she can now fully beat the urge of approaching sadness and remained cheered up without even trying.
I personally prohibit myself to ask myself one more about my worth and everything (maybe you should too). Let's have a prior understanding that we are born with purpose, God did not let us live for nothing.
Every little thing we do or had happened to us has something to do with the cycle. Do not took yourself for granted, do not even underestimate yourself because, my love, we might not know but the chance that your purpose is the most special among all is huge.
So chin up, clear your mind, rest your soul, and live happily doing your purpose. I love youuuuuu!
– Love, Lav.
