𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐒 ➼𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄 𝐄.

05 | alcohol makes you loud

this is a shorter one sorry :'' )
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billie took me to the bar where they served booze plus a bomb set of french fries. a funny combination, but still good.

we ordered a bunch of hot wings and fries. for hours, we just talked and laughed. i felt so close to billie and like we had known each other for years. part of me felt guilty for taking her away from dani, but she made me feel okay. she made me feel safe.

"so, you into underage drinking?" she asked after crunching on a fry.

i shrugged. "eh, fuck it, right? i'm probably high on the wings anyways."

billie ordered two beers. they tasted bitter but sweet. there's a word for that actually. bittersweet. that's how it felt to be with billie. bitter because she was suffering with her sexuality and i didn't know how to help but sweet because i got to get so lost in her eyes and love her beautiful, real self.

we finished our first drink quickly. we would then order another round, and another, and another and suddenly we lose count. we started becoming kind of delusional and undoubtably tipsy.

"so she was tOOOtally into hIm." billie was incredibly loud and i'm sure the entire club could hear her.

"jesus, bil! shhhhhUt up." my voice was distorted and i was slurring my words.

"wHhhhAt? alcohol mAkes you LOUD!" she cackled.

out of nowhere the same loud voice called billies name. it was familiar, and though we were drunk, we recognized immediately.

"billie!"

danielle. she stormed over to the both of us, but she was only looking at billie. a couple other girls followed behind her, but they didn't say anything else. bil stood up.

"yo where the fuck have you been?" dani yelled.

"can you calm the fuck down, bitch, it's not that big—" billie tried to speak, but dani cut her off again.

"we've been waiting for you, what the hell? are you drinking without us?" dani glanced over at me for a second and noticed i was staring. she looked even angrier than before. "the fuck you looking at, hoe."

i looked away, taken aback a little bit. billie blocked her view of me instantly. "don't fucking call her a hoe. you don't do that to my friends."

dani seemed frustrated. "she ain't your friend, billie! you just met her, girl. we're your actual friends."

i felt tears build up in my eyes and my throat starts to burn. everything else melted away and i was left with my thoughts. was she right? was i just someone she met? my heart started to hurt. but billie's yell brought me out of my head.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

it was as if the entire room turned to stare at us. i refused to cry in front of others. i got up and pulled billie's shoulder. "cmon, let's go home." i said.

dani and her girls looked surprised. billie begrudgingly followed me, her head aimed down. we walked out of the warehouse and i pulled out my phone to call and uber.

"i'm so sorry." billie whispered.

i held billies hands and looked at her gently. "don't be, please. she doesn't matter anymore, she's probably drunk. or high. or just a bitch."

she sighed, then chuckled. "probably all three." we giggled.

billie lifted her head and gazed at me. her blue eyes were glistening at night. it must've been at least midnight, or later. i felt her hands on my cheeks as she pulled me closer. she pressed her lips into mine. my heart had the fifth earthquake in a row. i wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her even closer.

her lips tasted like candy.