In loving hands-Anxceit

Nightmares are real

Virgil's dream
His voices curl around my head and mutes everything else, the way it claws itself into my brain making itself a memory that will never be forgotten. It hurt more than anything to know these words are coming from the person who is supposed to love and protect me but instead, all I see are broken promises and lies. Remy. He stands over me and gives me a look of disgust. I feel tears prick my eyes as he  slams his hand down onto the back of my neck and pushes me down to the ground. He gets on top of me, sitting on my back, and keeping a tight grip on the back of my neck.

I shoot up in bed and my breath is heavy and ragged. Every breath feels like lava is being poured into my lungs and my chest tightens. I turn to my right to see Janus still asleep and I try to keep quiet so I don't wake him up but, the next thing I know a gloved hand is placed on my shoulder and Janus is whispering thing like 'it's ok' or 'I'm here'.

I lean into his touch and feel start to even out as he starts running other hand through my hair. "I'm sorry I woke you" I whisper turning and leaning my cheek on his shoulder letting the comforting feeling consume me. "It's ok, I just want to make sure your ok" he says little louder than a whisper.

I feel my eyes start to droop until there was a loud slam and the bedroom door is thrown open. There in the doorway is Remus he's holding his mace in his hands and a demented twitch to his eye. Janus and I both fly off the bed and stand up and I see Janus's shoulders tense.

I feel my body start to shake and I jump when he charges forward and swings his mace at me. I quickly jump out of way before he grabs my shoulder and throws me against the wall. I feel my heart quicken as he gets in my face and whispers "Janus is mine, understand me?".

He lets me go and turns to leave but then whirls around and punches me in the face. The punch was so powerful it knocked me to the ground and Janus was by my side in a second. "Are you ok?" He asks gently as Remus storms out and slams the door behind him.

I nod my head not saying anything and Janus takes my hand, pulls me up and sets me on the bed. I keep my eyes on the ground and see Janus's knee in front of me as he crouches down. "Virgil, look at me" I hear him say and lay his hands on my right cheek.

"Cuddle bug?" He asks and I don't move, that is until I feel feel him run his fingers over my sides. I let out an undignified squeal and jump away but Janus pins me down and sits on my waist tickling the back of my knee, my death spot. I shoot up to try and grab his hand as I scream laugh and he pins my arms to my sides with his knees.

He stops after a couple of minutes and I have tears of mirth running down my face and a big, dopey smile on my face. I want it to stay like this forever. Me in Janus's arms with a smile on both of our faces and forgetting about all of our worries.