(A/N Sorry I haven't been on. I've been very busy and I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday.)
I wake up at 3 a.m. I can't sleep with these sheets. They dont feel like home to me. They're so foreign.
I crawl off the bed and go over to my box. I open it and grab my blanket my grandmum gave me when I was a a small girl.
I crawl back to my bed and stare at the roof.
I cant fall asleep.
I grab my phone and look for sleepy music on Spotify.
The rain and animal noises make me think.
I think of senerios.
The quiet bird noise in the background makes me wonder if that bird has ever gone through pain.
Not like human pain probably.
More like 'i couldn't find a big enough worm to fill my small stomach' pain.
Before I can drift back off to sleep my alarm goes off and I'm off to the showers.
After I get ready for school I wait for Leah to go to the bus stop.
"Did you get a good nights sleep?" Shes asks me as we board.
"Yeh." I lie.
Today went by much better than the past couple. Especially since it was Friday. The weekend starts now. Sometime to keep my mind off of everything.
"Hey Babe." Zayn welcomes me with a kiss as I meet him at his locker.
"Hey." I greet back, mid-kiss with a smile.
"What are you doing this weekend?" He asks, swinging his napsack around his shoulder.
"I don't have a clue." I admit.
"You should come over." He tells me. I know what he's thinking.
"I should." I agree. Being with him mostly will take my mind off of reality.
"See ya then." He winks. I now realize that we are out at the busses.
He leaves me with a gentle kiss on my forehead.
Those are the small things that remind me why I love him so much.
"Hey Bella." I hear and accent as I find my new bus quickly.
The buses are leaving soon.
"Not right now Niall." I tell him, scanning the area for bus # 190.
"I'm sorry for your loss." He blares out and I stop in my tracks. I forgot about that until now.
"How'd you know?" I say, not turning around.
"Your brother doesn't have much friends." He says passing me. "Bus 190 is up here." He says as I pick up on my feet again.
"How do you know what bus I'm on?" Does he stalk me? Liam doesn't know what bus Leah takes. Does he?
"You're staying with Leah, so-"
"How do you know that?" I ask again. I swear, he's stalking me.
"Dont worry, I dont stalk you, Liam told me." That little bastard. "So, anyways, Leah and I ride the bus together." He says and climbs on bus number 190.
Stalker.
I find Leah and sit with her.
She goes into a full conversation about how cute this one guy is, Harry, I think.
Once our stop comes Leah and I go inside. She starts her homework, trying to figure out spanish.
I sit next to her, chuckling at every word she pronounces wrong.
"Bella, instead of laughing at me, why dont you help me?" She asks with a glare.
"Leah, its the weekend, people dont study on the weekend." I remind her. "You're gonna forget everything by Monday anyways."
She sighs and packs up her books. "Are you hungry?" She asks walking into the kitchen.
"Oh honey, I'm always hungry." I remind her.
"True." She agrees and disappears.
I follow her and shes rumaging through the cabinets.
"We have some puddings? Cheese sticks?" She asks.
"Ooo chese sticks." I pad over to the fridge.
She takes two out, and hands me one.
"Thanks." I say and pad back to the living room.
A knock comes to the door.
I roll my eyes when I see who it is.
