Craving You ( Complete)

Need you

Krist POV

"It's been three weeks, Krist! Can't you let go of this sadness that you have developed over that cheater?" Prem shouted at me. He was constantly nagging me for my state but what he doesn't know is that the reason for my aloofness is not Nam but its sole reason is P' Sing. I was lying in bed thinking about the day that changed my life.

Since that day when he confessed his feelings and walked out of my life literally I haven't been able to get him out of my mind and now my heart. Everytime I see him around campus I now only see a guy who is cold and unapproachable. It's been three weeks since P' Sing has stopped talking to me. And I never knew till the time he stopped talking how much I loved looking at him, how much I missed his caressing, how much I missed his smile, his sparkling eyes, the way he took care of me. It's all gone. I don't know whether I love him or not but one thing that I know is that I want him in my life.

"And what is wrong with you and P' Sing? Why are you not talking to him? What have you done to him? I know it has something to do with you coz ever since he went to meet Nam, he is a complete contradiction of what he use to be at college." Prem continued. Hearing P' Sing's name I sat straight on my bed and stared at the pacing Prem who halted and glared at me.

" He fucking adores you Krist, why can't you see that? I have seen him look at you and after what ever happened there he looks dejected almost as if someone tore his heart out." Prem continued his monologue. But whatever he said was completely true.

" I think I hurt him badly Prem. He...he confessed to me on that day. I didn't know what to say."

" What did you do Krist?"
"That's what! I didn't do anything. I was too shocked. I didn't expect P' to like me much less love me. He is too perfect how can he?"

"So you don't like him?" Prem asked inquisitively

"Prem! Would it sound crazy if I say that I want him in my life. These three weeks have been excruciating. But I don't know whether I love him." I asked Prem worrying about how he would process it. I know he is not a homophobic especially when he has a very hot boyfriend. What worries me is his reaction to 'I want P' Sing but I don't love him' thing.

"Why would it sound crazy? You need to tell this to P' Sing and not to me. Please put that man out of his misery. Love is how you want to be with that person, it has no definition but it's something that you define for yourself."

" Thank you Prem. I need to see P' Sing but where will I find him. Do you know know where does he lives or his dorm?" I blurted out all too excited to go and see P'. But I was also wondering whether P' will forgive me or not. Yet that didn't stop me from deciding to confess to him what I wanted.

"Hahahhaha....I am happy that you stupid mind is working now. But wait! Does that mean whole this time you were actually worried about P' Sing and not about Nam.?"

"Finally....you figured it out" my each words dripped out sarcasm.

"Wow...just..."

" Now shut up! And tell me where does P' lives?"
"Okay..okay! Here this is his address. You should be thankful that my boyfriend owns a place in the same building as P' Sing and I was glad to see him there once."
Prem wrote the address on a piece of paper and handed it to me.

"Khop Khun na" I said and quickly changed into a blue button down shirt and a pair of white jeans. I rushed out of my dorm grabbing my wallet and car key to go to my P'. I was a nervous wreck who could explode at anytime but my anxiety was also mixed with a sense of excitement at seeing him

In my faxed out emotion, I didn't realise how I reached his dorm or how I was currently knocking at his door. After a few knocks, I was blessed with an angelic face who peered at me with an unreadable expression.

"Kit..I mean Krist? What you doing here?" He asked opening the door further

"P' Sing can I come in?"

"Oh! My apologies, come in"
I entered his dorm which which fairly spacious and extremely neat. I was looking around when I felt his presence at my back. I turned around, gathered my strength and

"P' Sing are you mad at me...? Why are you not talking to me anymore?

He sighed and said

" Krist, you know I can't hide my feelings anymore and I can't see you just as my junior."

"But why?"

" You rejected me Krist"

" When did I do that?"

" What do you mean when? I confessed and you stood there blankly, looking at me as if I was talking rubbish"

"P' Sing....it's you, of course I was shocked. You are so perfect. Why would you like someone like me, look at me, I am just so plane, shy and not good at all"

"Krist...don't do you dare insult the one whom I love"

P' Sing said in a stern voice a complete contradiction to his earlier dejected self.

" Sorry..P'. I don't know what you love in me but I have realised one thing in these three weeks, I don't like it when you don't look at me, I don't like it when you are not smiling at me, I don't like it when you are not beside me, ruffling my hairs, pinching my cheeks, tutoring me or taking care of what I like. All I know is that I want you beside me in my life. I don't know whether this is love or not coz I haven't felt like this ever. But I can try. Will you be ok with it? Do you still love me? Can you accept me as I am now and wait till I reach upto your feelings?"

P' Sing didn't say anything, he looked at me and then suddenly took me in his arms and whispered close to my ears raking my body and sending waves of shivers down my spine.

"You want me....that's all I needed to hear. I will wait for you, but now you are mine."

He said making me blush so hard that I could swear that I was looking like a tomato now. His arms tightened around me and planted a chaste kiss on my cheeks. He moved away still keeping his hands at waist before speaking again

"And Kit, one more thing....I am a very possessive lover. Remember that"

I don't know why but I felt like I should not take his words lightly. There was a sort of an dangerous aura around him when he said that. But all too early, he was back to his cheerful self.

"Thank you na, for wanting me in your life angel." He said once again making me feel all too hot.

A/N
Awww...Krist is just so cute.
Finally, P' Sing has his hands on his angel. But is that all?
Or do you think there will be something more to it?
Will Krist learn about Singto's true self or Can Singto play it out well?
What do you think? Should Krist know about Singto's plan or not?