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Long Story 14 - BoyxBoy - Ziam - Invisible

  I don’t think you understand… how it feels to be ignored, being lonely, and wondering what you did to earn such reasoning to be treated like this. Well; forget the last part actually.  I understand what I did to deserve this.  I did a terrible thing; and I regret it terribly; but you know what they say… Don’t regret something, because at one time; it was exactly what you wanted.

  I don’t know if I actually wanted what I did to come to this….

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   I came from an unwanted family.  My mum and father were sick and tired of me; so they kind of basically gave up on me. My sisters didn’t have much to say to me; since my parents never let them talk to me. I had to do everything on my own; until my parents actually kicked me out of the house.  I managed to rent an apartment and get a job to pay the rent off.

I thought this life would never end.  I thought; maybe I should die like a loner.

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  I guess you can say time passed and well, I tried out for the X-Factor. I had enough courage and the people at the apartments said I have a really good voice.  I did. 

  Long Story short; I made it; I was put into a band called One Direction later on.  We got third place, but we still continued our dream.  Our names were Niall, Louis, Harry, Zayn, and Liam.  I loved the boys. 

  Never knew I would fall for one of them…

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  I fell for the shy, quiet, but handsome Liam Payne.  His hair, his smile, and the way how he always listens to you made me fall for him even harder.  He already had a girlfriend though.  So I guess I could never get him…

  Sure the girls here, and around the world were very fit; but none compared to Liam.  Have you seen his six packs? DAYUM!  Sorry; I’m just ranting now… Danielle was lucky as crap.  It hurt me to say that about her; because she’s such a sweet person.

  I can’t believe I’ve decided to love him for the rest of my life; or what I had left of it anyways.

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  Being a boy who has been into depression and got out of it; it’s easy to see something shiny and sharp trigger your body into being depressed once again.  None of the boys knew.  I was depressed once again.

  I hide my scars with bracelets and fake those famous smiles I used to make girls fall weak to their knees.  I really wished that maybe if I actually smiled; I could make Liam feel weak to his knees; like how he smiles and does such an effect on me.

I wish…

I wish things were easier in life; and not this hard. 

But I guess; we have to enjoy the roller coaster that we call life.

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  “Hi Liam.”  I whisper.  He ignores me and walks pass by me.  I glumped and looked down at my shoes.  I walk up to Harry and say, “Harry.”  I pleaded, “I’m sorry.”  Harry did the same reaction as Liam and walked away. 

  Tears filled my eyes, and fell off my pale face.  I walked over to where Niall and Louis were sitting.  I sat in one of the chairs and listened to them.  Like they cared that I was sitting here listening to them.  “I miss him Lou…”  Niall cried, putting his head on the table.  “We all miss him Niall…”  Louis said in a weak voice. 

  “Not all of us.”  We all looked at Harry.  His eyes were full of pain and hatred, “He made a stupid fucking move.  Who dies because of hate?  We all have to go through that.  He was stupid enough to listen to that.”  “Says the boy that cried during an interview about that!”  I yelled, but none of them listened to me. 

  “Shut up Harry.  You didn’t know anything about him.  You didn’t know about his past.  You never got as much hate as he did.  I’m not saying that he should have made that move; but don’t’ say anything unless you actually took the time to get to know him.”  Liam spat out. Liam then walked over to his room and slammed the door. 

  “I’m sorry guys…”  I cried, “Please forgive me and move on about this!”  But of course; none of them took the time to pay attention to me. I sighed and left the room.  I opened Liam’s door to see him crying.  I walked over to him and the bed.

  “I miss you…  I miss your smile.  I miss your hair.  I missed the way you smiled and were faking it, but you still got me weak to my knees.  That day, when I broke up with Danielle, it was for you.  I didn’t know I was too late…”  Liam said, sobbing.

  I stared at him, and whispered, “I’m so sorry Liam..  I’m so sorry, please forgive me!”  “It’s all my fault..”  He whispered, “It was my entire fault.”  “No it wasn’t Liam!  You didn’t know about anything at that time; until you read my journal days later… “I said. 

  “When I went into your room that day to see if we needed to put anything else away; I found your journal.  It was in a hole that I guess you made in the wall.  I took it and read it.  And that brought me to tears in my eyes.”  Liam said. “I know… I saw you…”  I whispered.

  “How I wish you were with me Zayn.  I miss you so much.  I’m so sorry for not seeing that you were self-harming yourself.  Maybe if I saw it clearly I could have stopped it and we could have a happy life together. ” Liam whispered.  “I’m right here Liam, I’m right here!”  I protested, but knew he was right.  I wished I was with him too. 

  I touched him and he gasped, turning my way.  “Zayn…?”  He whispered.  “I’m right here Liam.  I’m sorry for being so stupid.”  I whispered.  “I… I don’t know if it is you there Zayn.  But know I love you so much, and I don’t know if I’ll ever move on.  Hell, who am I kidding?  I’ll never move on.  You’re so special to me; and I don’t know how I’ll move on.  Crap Zayn, why do you do this to me?  Such an effect no one has ever given to me.”  Liam said, still sobbing.  I kissed him on the cheek and whispered, “I love you.” 

  I don’t know if he heard it, but he looked at me and smiled a little.  “I don’t know if that was you Zayn, but I love you…”  I stood up, and for some reason; Liam started to whisper, “Zayn, no, you left, don’t leave me!” 

  Harry walked into the room and said, “Liam, are you okay?”  “No.  I miss him Harry.”  Liam whispered. Harry walked over and said, “We all miss him Liam.  I miss that damn boy.  That Zayn Malik that gave us advice when we really needed it.  Even if I hate him for doing that, he’ll always be in our heart.  I can’t hate him; it’s impossible to do…

  They smiled at each other and walked out of the room.  They passed me and I whispered, “I’m sorry..”  And knew…

I was invisible to them; once again.

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  Hopefully you guys understand the meaning of this!  I went on a different approach on this; so enjoy!