ʙʟᴜᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ➼ KnY x Reader

Chapter #2

Y/n's PoV

After that encounter, we headed back home. Burying our deceased family and praying for their safety in the afterlife. A lot of tears were shed from Tanjiro but I stayed blank, not knowing how I should feel in this situation. Tanjiro held my hand and brought it up, facing me with worry. "Y/n, are you alright?" I stared blankly into his burgundy eyes. 'What is my answer?' I asked myself. I decided it was best not to answer so I averted my gaze and walked away.

'My whole family has been killed. My twin sister has turned into a demon. My oldest brother survived alongside me but he's the only one bearing the pain. Why can't I feel emotion? I can't even feel the guilt or remorse I should be feeling. I can't even feel sadness. Some people may say it's bliss, but it's really a curse.'

As soon Tanjiro was done with his prayers and called me over as they were leaving. I stood up, brushing off the snow that had fallen on my lap. Then approaching the older, taller male. He took my hand and Nezuko's as we descended the mountain together. We found a small hole to hide Nezuko from the sunlight.

We decided to camp out there for a while. Tanjiro went to get Bamboo sticks and a basket to put Nezuko in so we could carry her throughout the day so I was in charge of taking care of Nezuko. I sat outside, pulling legs close to my chest. I watched as she slowly dug herself into the ground like a hedgehog or mole.

'Although I was younger than her, I was always a few inches taller. And even though I was her twin, I was nothing like her. She was very girlish and liked kimonos while I was tomboyish and liked to wear pants. I also looked nothing like her, though I've had many people tell me I was very beautiful, Nezuko was way more beautiful than me. Even though we were different in every way possible, we still got along in a way. Especially considering my lack of emotion. She always cared for me, but what have I ever done for her?'

Just then, a ruffling in the snow snapped me out of my thoughts, I tilted my head, revealing it was my brother attempting to cover the basket with thin pieces of bamboo. Once he was done he turned to me and asked: "Do you think this will be enough to hold Nezuko, Y/n?" I examined the basket for a moment then tilted my head. "Tanjiro. That basket won't fit her." I stated coldly. Tanjiro smiled "Well, remember earlier when she doubled in size? Maybe she could do it in reverse and get smaller!" He cheered.

'How can he be so cheerful...?' I thought. He looked in the hole, it was dark but also painfully obvious that it seemed as if Nezuko wasn't there. "Eh! Where's Nezuko?" Tanjiro asked, half panicked. "She dug herself into the dirt below." Tanjiro went inside the hole to examine, revealing our sibling really had been in the ground, hiding. He pulled her out and pointed to the basket as he opened it. "Nezuko can you fit in this basket?"

He continuously pointed to the basket while repeating the word 'basket' until Nezuko attempted to fit in the basket, which failed. Resulting in her hitting her head on the side of the basket. "Nezuko, can you get smaller? Smaller?" Tanjiro asks while doing a gesture his hands.

Slowly she started getting smaller and finally fitting in the basket. "Yay! Good girl Nezuko!" Tanjiro cheered once more, closing the basket and wrapping a clothe over it to prevent sunlight from entering. He put the basket on his back.

Tanjiro came out and held out a hand in front of me. "Come on, Y/n. Let's go together!" His lips had his signature smile. I took his hand and he pulled me up. He held my hand lovingly and we took off.

We made our way to Mt. Sagiri. Most of our journey was in silence. We walked at a moderate speed nothing much happened. I started to think about all that had happened today. 'Was how I reacted appropriate? They all loved and cared for me but I had the incapability to do the same for them. And now that they're dead... I don't want to hurt Tanjiro or Nezuko since they're the only family I have. Maybe it would be best if I had died or never been born.'