𝙱𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙷𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚢𝚜 | Reddie AU

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A/N: Hi just wanted to put a warning that Eddies like going to be very self-destructive and insecure and just wanted to put some form of trigger warning? And there's gonna be slurs some homophobia

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"I'm so fucking stupid!" Eddie gasped for air hitting the sides of his bed crying. "Why the fuck would he even want me?!" "Why! Why! I'm just some stupid fucking?!" He sat up gripping his shirt mumbling. "You fucking dumbass!"

I knew I'd just get fucking hurt! All I do is let people in who don't actually care about me! God, am I just some fucking...Eddie flopped back down crying harder...Why?

Why the fuck doesn't anyone love me.

Why doesn't anyone want me?

He doesn't even want me.

His face was completely red, puffy cheeks and chapped lips. The tip of his nose was bright red due to how much he was crying. He thought he was in love with Richie, but he was too busy sticking his dick in anything that'll move.

The one and only Richie Tozier currently had only just got home, he was confused, kinda hurt and just...didn't know what to make of it. He didn't even say I love you, or you too...not even a goodbye kiss?

Was it cause he was embarrassed or ashamed? Or was Richie just not good enough? Richie shook his head trying to push past the thoughts grabbing his bag in the seat Eddie sat in most of the time.

He grabbed his keys slipping them in his back pocket walking into the place he called home. "Mum! He's a faggot! He's disgusting and.-" "Enough Finn! For god sake! He's coming back soon!"

He sighed letting out a tired. "Hey, mum. Finn." Maggie stammered quickly rushing to hug her child, who looked so tired. "Richie! Hey! How was school." Richie mumbled shrugging it off. "Uh, it was fine."

Maggie cocked her head rubbing his arm. "What's wrong?" Richie shook his head quickly forcing a smile across his lips. "I told you I'm fine! See!" Maggie nodded pulling back. "James is coming into town for a couple of weeks, you should intrude Edd.-"

Richie nodded already making his way to the steps. "Yep! Thanks, ma!" "Did something happen with you and.-" "No!" Richie groaned shutting his door to shut her up, he twisted the lock quickly flopping down onto his bed getting under the covers...what happened?

"Faggot! Open up!" Richie rolled his eyes laughing...funny how he was being harassed by his little brother even though Richie was seventeen and the younger boy was fifteen.

Richie sat up rubbing his head, James is coming! That's really good! James will be a good guy to hang out with! Richie blew a raspberry into the air grabbing his phone from his bag quickly.

Why is Eddie so upset.

He went to type a message out only for his hands to stop... "Faggot for fuck sake! You're making mum upset and it's all your fault!" Richie rolled his eyes muttering. "Go away, Finn!" "What?! Too busy sexting your boyfriend?!" Richie groaned. "Fuck off Finn!"

Richie typed out with shaky hands.

"Are you mad at me?"

"Did I do something?"

"Hey."

"Hello, you ok?"

Richie groaned hitting his head. "Come on just" He hit send typing out. "U seemed mad at me??" But, he was left on seen.

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A/N: HOPE YOU ENJOYEDDD!!