Before You Go (bakudeku angst fanfiction)

hospital

i woke up but i couldnt see anything from my left eye. i looked around and saw i was in a hospital. white walls and white sheets. i looked at my left and saw a blond with spikey hair sleeping where i was. i let out a slight smile.

'kacchan does care of if he just yells and tells me to die i will'

i grab my phone and check the time. 4:58 am. i looked at my wrists and saw my scars heald. i checked the day. june 15. my birthday. its the last year of middleschool. (pretendddd)

i sighed and started listening to music soon i started singing outloud. i didnt relize until kacchan held my hand scarring me. 

"kacchan you scared me!" i laugh and smile. a genuin smile

he did his signiture 'tch' but the thing is he can smile! ive never seen him smile before.

he hugged me and started sobbing on my shoulder. it shocked me. i always thought kacchan hated me. i hugged back and conforted him. saying nothing bu sweet things to him trying my best to calm him down. 

"WHY IZUKU WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!" he yelled at me with his tear stained face.

'...' i stayed quiet. 

'IZUKU FUCKING ANWSER ME SHITTY NERD' he sobbed loudly

"i wanted to stop the pain..  i wanted to stop being a bother... and become useful for once.." i responded in more of a mutter

"dont do that again you moron" he sobbed. 

i nod in responce. i hated seeing kacchan hurt. kacchan... im so so so sorry... 

i kep mumbling apology after apology as tears flowed down my face. i didnt think it would affect him this much... i always thought it would be better off without me. my father being absusive... for all i know is he could come back any time soon. my mom being an alcoholic and drinking at night having to tske care of her son who is obsessed with all might. plus my mom beating me up often when she got drunk so so so often. it hurts. 

it hurts more than my dad beating me. my mom.. the woman i trusted and loved. the woman who gave birth to me. beat me.. 

kacchan who i was always a bother too. i would follow him and i always looked up to him. no matter what. but he thought i looked down on him.. he was my hero.. he was the person i admired. more than all might...

i tried to get up. it was impossible. my legs feeling numb. not being able to feel a thing. feeling nothing. i looked at kacchan scared and confused. 

"kacchan i cant move of feel my legs what happened..." i mumble.

he looked concered too and he called a nurse. she explained to me im paralized from the waist down. she said i could still walk if i take phisical theripy. i agreed. 

i had to stay in the hospital for over 3 months. it was the worst 3 months of my life. i hated it in here. the white walls remind me how useless i was for not being able to be smart enough and not attemped suicide.

i did so some phicical theripy and now i waddle around everywere. like a 1 year old who can walk. of course people ask questions and i just tell them i was in a car accident and i cant walk anymore so im taking phisical theripy so i can walk normally. they all look at me in pitty but what can we worse. i usually listened to musi though. 

i get to go home today. i hope nothing goes down. 

A/N im sorry this chapter is short its currantly 1 am and i really wanted to upload for you guys because i havent uploaded in so long. i love you all so much! ill try to upload as soon as possible. thank you bbys love you so so so so so so much!

~aki  kun