Charlis pov: today's the day I see chase after over 2 months of us being broken up. I missed him and I still do but I didn't want anyone to see it. He broke my heart and I just can't trust him even though I'm still in mad love with him. For the first 3 weeks after I found out he tried to hook up with nessa I cried all day everyday. I would only post drafts. I finally snapped out of it but deep inside I was always still broken. A month after we broke up I started dating this dude named Matt and I still am but he's not chase. I started dating Matt to try to get over chase but it hasn't worked. I'm just really stubborn and I can't let chase know I was miserable and still am without him. I was in a crazy type of love with chase. He took my virginity, he held me when I cried, he always would help me with everything, he always made sure I was happy. But when we broke up it all disappeared. I have no type of connection with Matt and I think he just wants sex off of me which I won't allow. Obviously chase doesn't love me or he wouldn't of tried to get with nessa. I still ask the same question to myself everyday. It's why did he try to get with nessa? I mean was I not good enough? I just don't know. I finally board my plane to la since the coronavirus has finally stopped we can travel. I fall asleep after 30 minutes
6 hours later
Chases POV: charli is coming to the hype house in 30 minutes and I don't know how to act. I got really depressed without charli and I completely understand why she broke up with me. I broke her heart. I hate myself everyday for that but I can't go back and not dm nessa. I wasn't thinking clearly when it happened and I wanted to have sex and i went to nessa when I should of went to charli. Ever since then I would hookup with random girls every night to try and get my mind off charli but it never works. She looks happy in her tiktoks maybe she's happier without me.
Charlis pov: I get to the hype house and Dixie says "char its gonna be okay" I nod and we knock on the door. Thomas opens it for us and says "hi come in" everyone comes downstairs and I give everyone a hug. When I got to chase it was awkward but I still hugged him. Thomas says "well charli you have to sleep with Dixie because well you and chase aren't together" I nod and look down. I bring my stuff up to Dixies room and I wish i could stay with chase. With charli get those thoughts out of your head. He doesn't want you he broke your heart. I unpack my stuff and go in the TikTok bathroom to make some tiktoks. As I'm in the process chase walks in about to take a shower. I say "oh sorry I'll leave" he nods and I do so. It's only 2 pm in the afternoon so I walk downstairs and ask if anyone wants go to dunkin with me. Thomas offers to drive me so I hop in the car with him. Me and Thomas are like brother and sister. We drive to dunkin and as we drive he says "chase has been a complete wreck without you" i sigh. He says "do you still have feelings for him?" I say "I love chase so much and I always will but he broke my heart and I can't trust him. And just so you know I posted drafts for 3 weeks after I found out he tried to hook up with nessa because I could barely get out of bed and always had red puffy eyes I still think about why he went to nessa for sex instead of me I guess I'm just not good enough. And also I have a boyfriend in Connecticut" Thomas says "wait really?" I say "yeah" Thomas says "do you love him?" I say "there's not really a connection I think he's just using me so I won't allow him to do anything" Thomas says "ohh" I say "yea" after we get dunkin we head back to the hype house
Chases pov: I had asked Thomas to ask charli. If she still had feelings for me. When they get back I pull Thomas into a room I say "so what did she say?" Thomas looks down and says "she basically said she will never stop loving you but you broke her heart and she can't trust you. She wants to know why you went to nessa for sex instead of her and she thinks she's not good enough. She said she was depressed for 3 weeks after and only posted drafts and just cried all day. And— she also has a- boyfriend in Connecticut" my facial expressions change and I wanna cry. I need to talk to her. So I go down stairs and find her. I tap her shoulder nervously and say "hey can we talk" gently. She looks down and says "sure" we go in the TikTok bathroom and I say "so char I just wanted to say I still love you with everything in me. And I didn't think that night that i went to nessa for sex. I was just super horny I'm really sorry. Trust me your so much more then good enough." She tears up and says "I can't do this" she begins to walk away and I gently grab her hand. I say "please just talk to me" she makes her voice louder but not too loud and says "fine chase I was a complete wreck without you and probably still am but I can't trust you! Your excuse for trying to cheat on me was you were horny?! You could've gone to me! For weeks I hated myself because of you! I wanted to fucking kill myself! And I've never had the chance to actually fight with you in real life!" I say a tear drops from my face. She pulls me in and kisses me without warning. I kiss her back and it's very deep and passionate. Suddenly I feel hot water on my face and I realize she's sobbing through the kiss. She pulls away sobbing and says "I have a boyfriend I can't" and runs away. I just want and need to comfort her. I'm litterally the cause for all the pain she is feeling.
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A/N hey guys so I hope you enjoyed today's chapter I will try to update once a day or more! Please comment suggestions and vote! 💖🤍
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