Beautiful stars

Chapter 1- Janis

TW's : Panic attacks, Mentions of homophobia, vomiting

The clock on the wall kept ticking towards my- well our- appointment time. Damien had insisted I get therapy and shit but I couldn't bring myself to, so he offered to come with me. He squeezes my hand reassuringly as we sit waiting, my eyes are darting around the room and my knee is bouncing. Damien instantly picks up on the fact that I'm freaking out so places his hand on my knee and pulls me into a hug. "No hetero." he says softly, "No hetero." I reply melting a bit. A middle aged lady looks at us funny and Damien glares at her. "Janis Sark..isian...is that right? Oh and Damien Hubbard? Your appointment time is now." Called out a perky looking receptionist. Damien stood up pulling me to my feet. He is holding my hand and honestly without him I would've run home already- Besides hes the only one with a car besides Cady but she does not need to know about this. Damien begins to walk but I zoned out thinking about Cady so he tugs my hand snapping me back to reality, I stumble forwards in a sort of daze. We follow the lady to a room marked '4B Pediatric trauma and anxiety specialist.' Underneath that there's the name Dr. Mikaela Jones. The room is whitewashed. White walls, white couch, white desk, white windows, white bookshelves and white clothes on the therapist. Damien tries to crack a joke and the therapist laughs but I don't register it. Damien steers me to the couch but I stand there awkwardly. "Janis...Janis?" He says softly whilst pulling my arm, "sit down." I lower myself to the sofa and instantly grab Damien's hand. He puts an arm round me protectively and I lean my head on his shoulder. 

"So how long have you two been dating?" The therapist asked, making Damien burst out laughing and me to crack a smile. Damien responded for us, "Aw Hunny, I am in-fact a homosexual-" "Too gay to function." I cut in. He smiled before continuing. "And my best friend Janis here has a fatty lesbian crush on our friend." "No I don't" I said blushing weakly the thought of Cady popping back into my head. "My point proved!" He said triumphantly, I smiled and rolled my eyes at him. At that moment my phone pinged. "May I-" I started to say but the Therapist cut me off saying it was okay. I pull my phone out my pocket and there's about 20 messages and 10 missed calls. I was just about to message Cady back when she calls me. I ask everyone to stay quiet while I answer.

* Call Transcript*

Cady: Hey Jan finally you haven't responded to my texts...Or my calls

Janis: Cads I'm sorry-

Cady: Oh don't be it doesn't matter... Are you busy or Can we hang out later- Oh and if Damien's there say Hi for me

Janis: Umm we are kinda busy right now but later sounds good. Damien can come get you- I have to go Damien needs help, kinda private matter-

Cady: Okay well can you call me when you're free I like hearing your voice

I began to blush and then said:

Janis: Aw thanks and sure

Cady: Okay then Bye...Love you Jan see you later

Janis: See you 

I hung up. I smiled at Damien. "Cady wants to hang out." The therapist cleared her throat and I realised where I was. 

"How did everything begin?" she asked calmly. Damien began to explain and I let my mind wander to the events of the last few months.