stuck [choi yeonjun]

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Yeonjun's POV:

I smile to myself seeing her sleeping next beside me in peace. Have I ever said how much I love these cuddles cause damn she's too comfortable. The soft sunrays illuminating on her face which is just making her look more gleaming with the bangs resting on her forehead imperfectly, her upper lip consists a cupid bow whereas she has full lower lip making me recall the kiss we had last night and I softly chuckle.

I remove the bangs covering her forehead slowly as she is in a deep sleep. Things must be getting too much for her to deal with and on top of that, she doesn't really take care of herself much. Look at those still tears stained cheeks, she was so ghastly pale last night, not to mention the suicide attempt. She definitely has lost some weight and those dark circles say she hasn't had a sound sleep for days. She is really a mess.

It's so strange that my demon didn't punish her last night and let me takeover him just to comfort her. Or maybe I was able to overcome him because I didn't want to see her hurting more, all because of my stupid demon. Still, I'm yet to know what has made her disobey me all of a sudden and what exactly happened yesterday.

Everything is already complicated and the real complications are still waiting to show up.

Whenever my demon rules my body, I will be locked in darkness  and can't hear anything or see anything with no idea of what has been happening on the outside world. No matter how much I shout, scream and yell in agony, no one can hear me. That's how it is, that's how helpless I am.

My demon knocks out when he doesn't want to rule anymore and I come back when I get sense again. Again, sometimes my willpower and my psyche somehow help me win over my demon and that's why I'm still existing otherwise my demon's always trying to lock me in the lonely cage forever because he knows he can't kill me. We are two in one so he can never kill me, however, it's true that I'm inferior to him and that is why I pity myself. I'm afraid since he's way much more stronger than me and one day he'll surely win, will destruct everything, even my loved ones whereas I'll sit on the dark, helpless and hopeless.

There was no hope about this, making it certain that dreadful end was bounded to come until someone else stepped in my life and things been going really unpredictable after her coming in my life.

Everyone must be wondering what's the connection of her with all this and that, I don't know too. Although, one strange exceptional is my demon never actually harmed her. No matter how much she provoked my demon, he spared her eventually and why did he mark her in the very first place? This is the question I want to ask him but I never get the chance. He never answers my questions and also he's just so fucking selfish that he won't even answer it unless I've to sacrifice something and I don't have the afford to lose anything remaining in my life. He never marked anyone before, never even played anyone to this point, never got interested in anyone like this. It's like Sora is his favourite toy that he ain't gonna be bored of soon, not till he has had enough of her.