stuck [choi yeonjun]

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Sora's (your) POV:

After the blackness of night, finally the sun has risen on the horizon spreading her gold in every direction and filling the sky with shades of orange and pink. Even when my world is drowning in grief and hardship, the sky remains beautiful. That is the one thing that has kept my hopes up- if the sky remains vivid and powerful then so can I until the day I die.

But somehow I am not able to put myself together knowing that I actually forgot what today is. How come I forgot my identity for some moments? Is it because I no longer get nightmares every night? Is this because I no longer feel lonely? So all the time my nightmares were holding me back to my past and locking me to darkness? Today's the day when mom died and every year I spend the whole night in front of her graveyard but I forgot this year.  Is this because Yeonjun was with me?

I suddenly remembered today's date in the midnight while staring at sleeping Yeonjun whose soft snores were filling the room. I didn't wake him up since he was sleeping so peacefully. Afterwards, I quickly got myself ready and headed out, not informing anyone because all of them were sleeping and it's barely five o clock in the morning.

The cold air hits my skin which causes me to shiver. Flashbacks of the past; each and every time I had spent with my passed legal mother keeps playing in my mind and they are hurtful.

There's a flowershop on the way to the graveyard which is always open- especially at early mornings. Soon I reach there and buy a bouquet of white hibiscus before starting to walk again. White hibiscus is her favorite flower that I always buy on this day when I pay a visit to her.

"Eomma-"

"How many times do I need to say that call me mom not eomma."

"I'm sorry Mom."

"What do you want?"

"Today is my birthday. Can you please wish me a 'happy birthday' once?"

"I am just so sick of you. No one knows when is your birthday Sora. Today's just a day when you were adopted and nothing else. Now move."

"S-sorry I f-forgot...."

"Sora...I'm going to die."

"Mom why are you saying this? It's just a stone in your kidney and doctors have assured that you'll be completely alright after getting this surgery."

"B-but your dad is going to kill us."

"What's wrong with you mom? Dad is already dead."

"No not him...you need to take revenge before you die.... your ste-"

"Times up Mrs.Min. Time for your operation so I hope you are prepared. I'm taking your mom for now Sora. Stay strong. She'll come back fully hale and hearty."