rants

rant 4

broken hearts

im sorry, its been awhile since ive been on here, i didnt know how to come back so why not with a rant. i got my heartbroken and it hurts a lot, how someone can just take your trust and then just throw it away. they said they would never ever leave but they did, i was too caught up in the glory of it all to realize that they were fading away. I guess its okay though, he seems happier. its been a month well around a month since we broke up and its been getting easier but harder at the same time. I know that doesnt make sense but like everytime he posts about someone it hurts and i cry and then i get frustrated at myself for crying. its really stupid somedays. moving on is rollarcoaster, there are days where you'll feel on top of the world, happy that they left and that you dont need them. While on other days, you're just at the bottom wondering where it went wrong. thats okay though, i mean its progress. I just cant believe he turned into the person i didnt want to be with or well him to be. it is what it is, just gotta get through and over it. i just wish I was good enough. and i just wish he cared but we cant have everything we want.