𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖉 𝖉𝖗𝖚𝖌𝖘 | 𝖒𝖆𝖋𝖎𝖆 (𝘽𝘼𝙉𝙂 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙉 )

1 - a gift from god

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I was useless.

A waste of a life, why was I born into this harsh world?

As I started getting older, the days felt shorter, full of uninteresting information about meaningless people.

"Are you even listening to me Areum? You are not stepping foot into our home anymore, your dad has agreed to this. You are a failure. We'll give you until tomorrow to get all of your belongings," .

I was standing like a fool in front of my front door, while my mom was aggressively shouting at me.

Her words were getting crueler as time went by, she still didn't accept my pregnancy, but ever since I've been working at the strip club things had gotten worse.

The club was my only source of income for my one year old child and I, my parents never helped me. I have to pay rent in my childhood home, I buy my own food as well as all of my baby's clothes. They were never here for me.

I felt a sudden pain on my right cheek, the impact making me fall back onto the cold, hard and wet floor.

"That was unnecessary mom!" my words were barily audible over my loud sobs.

It was raining heavily and I had just gotten back from my shift after a long day, making nearly no money at all that night.

She didn't care though, no one did.

"Get out of my sight," a pang of sadness hit me harder than she ever had.

I had always been raised into a loving family, what happened was never my fault.

F L A S H B A C K

"Get away from me, don't touch me," I swiftly backed away before he could grab me.

"Areum I already told you, you have no choice, pleasure me," his tone was cold and stern. I looked around the room, knowing that no one could save me.

I tried to open the door behind me but it was locked. I couldn't find the key either.

Before i could even let out a squeak, he harshly pulled on my hair making me fall back onto the bed.

I was just an innocent 16
year old.

E N D O F F L A S H B A C K

I didn't abort my son. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I had to keep him, he was my only source of light left. A gift from God.

My mom had already left me outside all alone, making me now homeless. My son was still inside the house, but I couldn't bring him out in the freezing cold like that.

I carefully stood up, still being shaken up from what had happened moments prior, making me very dizzy. I didn't want to fall and possibly hurt myself. That would make me lose my job.

I actually liked being a stripper, the owner is a very close family friend of ours, making me getting the job a piece of cake even if I was underaged.

My birthday was coming soon making me only seventeen. In one year I could rent my own apartment, so I was obligated to stay under my parents' roof even though they had already disowned me because of my choices.

I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize I had gotten pretty far away from the house.

I was now walking on gravel with my stripper heels. Great, this is going to go terribly wrong.

I tried keeping my pace steady on the little stones, I could've picked the road not taken, the path would've been smoother for me to walk on.

Before I could continue my regretful thoughts, I heard a a faint noise, sounding like a crack. When I looked down, my left shoe's heel was completely broken.

"Fuck this, what type of karma-" I muttered under my breath, but I was taken off guard, twisting my ankle as I fell down the short hill I was walking on. Completely taking me off the original trail, I ended up in shallow water.

The fall made me hit my chin on a rock, completely ripping my flesh and making me bleed.

I winced and cried out in pain, my arms trembled as I tried to hold up my weight to be able to get up.

When I looked down, I saw that my knees were badly scraped, making the simple act of standing up, a very hard challenge.

I swiftly took off my heels, throwing them in the body of water, completely discarding them.

I finally was able to stand up after several tries.

"Why is today such a terrible day? What did I do to deserve this,"

I'm homeless, I'm hurt, I'm broke and I'm also very far aways from home. In the dark I can't tell where I'm going, I don't recognize where I fell down to.

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- to be continued -