Live and in Stereo

Tape Six

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Bakugo POV

I walked back to my dorm in a daze. I didn't even remembering walking to my dorm, until my phone went off, and I realized I was on my bed. I opened it, to see it was an email about homework. Nothing important right now. My grades had been dropping this past week from the lack of sleep, and focusing all his time the tapes.

But he didn't care. Why should he? It was already late afternoon, andI haven't eaten all day. But hey who needs food? I say, convincing myself it was okay to listen to another tape. 

"Hi, Asui." I took a deep breath. I know already had an idea what this was going to be about.

Flashback

I was eating lunch outside, behind UA with the rest of the Bakusquad. It was a few days after Todoroki's sexuality came out. But no one knew what Shinso had done. Asui came walking up to our table, with textbooks in hand. Everyone knew Asui was a big gossip, but she was also really popular. "You guys hear about what happened with Todoroki, and Midoriya, right? Kero Kero." 

She asked us. "Oh ya," Mina said. "He completely exposed him." Mina said, audibly. "Yeah, you should all probably steer clear of Midoriya. If you know what's good for you." The frog girl said standing back up. "Already on it." Kamanari said. "Yeah, bro he deserves to have no friends after what he did." Kirishima said, while Sero nodded in agreement.

Off in the distance Deku was sitting alone, eating a sandwich.

End of Flashback

"I know what I appeared to have done to Todorki was bad. But you didn't have to go on telling everyone not to befriend me, Asui. I get it you have a lot of friends, you don't know what it's like. Answer not pleasant" I sighed deeply continuing to listen to the tape.

"I was cut off from everyone. There was no way anyone would want to be my friend after that. No one cared about me. No one even bullied me. Which may seem like a good thing, but at least people knew that I existed. I'd rather be hated, then be invisible. Because now I hate myself."

"No one noticed I was drowning, no one would notice. And no one ever will. I feel like I'm screaming out for help, but no one is hearing me. How long do I keep fighting for air? When should I let the cruel reality sink in? How long should I continue? How long should I keep drowning? How long until I give up? Answer, fairly soon."

Hot tears rolled down my face, as a leaned my head against the wall.

" Would anyone even notice if I disappeared? I mean, I'm already fading. If people really wanted me to stay, wouldn't they say so? I'm just worthless pathetic excuse of a student. All I do is waste space, and oxygen."

My bed was soaked in the tears, I was shedding.

"I've tried pretending to be happy, I've tried to bend until I break. I've tried meeting every expectation. I've tried replacing myself with someone else. Someone better. So much so that I don't recognize the person in the mirror anymore."

"I wear clothes I don't like. Do things I don't want to do. Style me hair, in a way I don't want to. My real self is so far from my body, I'm already dying. I just need my body to catch up to my mind. Everything in front of me is black, I have no future. So why do so I even try anymore."

"I don't, I just need people to know what they did to m. What I became because of the actions they took. I need them to know that they broke the toy, they so loved to play with. I'm just born to be the person everyone lashes out at."

"I rolled unlucky. The dice didn't come out in my favor. My whole role is to be used, broken, and thrown away. Well people have thrown me away. So it's my time to go. Goodbye."

The click came, signaling the end of the tape. Hot tears were rolling down my face, in buckets. I-I didn't know how Deku felt. I could tell that he was alone, but this is a whole different level of sad. He sounds so tired, he sounds so broken.

And I'm the one who did that. I deserve to be six feet under, not him. He's right. He did nothing, he just rolled the dice and it didn't come out in his favor.

He had one friend in his entire life. But with friends like me who needs enemies. That's what repeated in my mind, crying myself to sleep.

Author Chan

This chapter was shorter then I expected, sorry. But hey daily uploads, so that ,ales up for it. I also understand there was some trouble with this chapter getting out. So please tell me if you are having any problems.