Jiara surrender ♡

Part 10

Just prepare yourselves for this chapter that's all I'm saying. Tw: sexual assault 
Kiara's pov
I can't believe I did this to JJ. I just frozen when he told me that. I like him too but I can't be with him my insecurities would kick in. I wouldn't be able to be complete honest with him and he needs that. He needs reassurance. I'm crying so hard. I haven't cried this hard since that happened 2 years ago. Not even when John B and Sarah disappeared. I arrive home and 2 am. I see Jack my disgusting neighbor lights on and I scream. I just scream. It's his fault. It's all his fault. He turns the lights out while I scream and I'm glad he didn't heard me. My parents on the other side come running.
- Kiara are you okay?? What happened?- dad asks.
I just find the most stupid excuse ever:
- I saw a snake you know I hate snakes and are super scared of them.
- I'm glad it was just a snake sweetie. We thought someone was hurting you!- my mum says.
My dad looks at me confused because he can see my eyes are probably too red for me to be crying because of a snake.  He knows me better than anyone else. He knows I have been crying for 1 hour now.
- C'mon go to sleep.- my mum says.
I go to my bedroom and see photos of me and JJ whispering:
- I'm so sorry!
I put his sweater that he landed me last summer because I was cold. It still smells like him. I try to sleep but I cry all night. This isn't going to be good with a party tomorrow. I could say I am sick but Sarah would never believe that.  I hate myself.
I wake up at 4 pm and realize I have to be at John B's at 5 pm. I pick every possible outfit and all I need and go to John B's. Before I leave I look into the mirror and see my swollen eyes. I thought of putting some concealer on but Sarah is going to do it any way. When I leave my room my dad looks at me closely. I can tell it hasn't left his mind the thought something more than a snake happened.
- Kie baby before you go to the party you know I'm here right? - he tells me.
- Yes I know dad.- I believe that but he wasn't when that happened.
- Be safe baby and call me if something happens I'm old but still kick someone's ass.
I laugh and get out of my house. I drive off to John B's. As I enter JJ is on the couch still sleeping. I'm glad he didn't went back home and stayed here. As I walk in Sarah is with huge smile but the moment she looks at me her smile fades. She looks at my eyes and she goes
- Gosh Kie! Have you been crying all night??What happened?
The moment she says this JJ passes by us to get a glass of water sharing a hurtful glance with me. His eyes are red too.
- Kie what happened? Have you even eaten today?- she pushes me aside.
JJ looks at me worried when Sarah mentions the fact I might haven't eaten today. Good he still worries. He's probably never taking to me again with a reason but he still worries.
- Yes I have don't worry.
She pushes me to the bedroom closing the door. The moment she closes the door I start crying.
- He confessed his feelings for me yesterday and I left I just paralyzed.
- What why Kie?
- I can't do this. I just can't.
- Why Kie?
- Don't ask me why Sarah I just can't. 
I can't tell anyone why.  It would kill me not being able to be 100% honest with him.
She hugs me.
- Okay Kie I'm not going to force you to talk about it but now you have to loosen up and be that boss ass bitch I know. C'mon wear this shorts and this top.
- No way Sarah that's too tight!
- I don't care Kiara Carrera put this on now!
- Okay. Okay!
I look into the mirror and I feel sexy. But we definitely have to fix my face.
JJ's pov
I'm not angry or mad as I usually am when something happens. I'm sad, I'm hurt and look to her isn't the best feeling after last night. Her eyes were even worse than mine but why? Why did she cut me off if it hurts her so much and she likes me back? John B comes over at me
- Hey man Kie's here
- I know I saw her.
- But she's not okay either. She's acting weird.
- Yes I've figured it by now.
- But we have a party at the beach with so many people in half an hour's and you're the best at partying.
- Yes I am. - I convive myself and get the negative thoughts out of my head.
Kie comes out of the bedroom with Sarah looking hot as ever. Fuck she messes with my head in a extreme level. But I'm still hurt with her so I go off and start to make my way to the beach.
Kiara's pov
We're at the party and I'm hanging with Sarah, John B and Pope. Pope has been so sweet with me this night. Gosh he really is my best friend. We are just taking about random things. JJ has been looking at me all night but he's still hurt. Okay literally he confessed me all of that and I just drove off. I don't see him anymore. JJ is probably drunk by now and fucking some girl. This Austin and Connor guy come to us and greet John B. Connor and I start talking a lot about the ocean and turtles. I love turtles.
- You look really pretty tonight- he says.
- Uhm thank you!
- I need to show you something will you come with me?- he asks
- Yes sure!
We walk to the back of John B's place and he pushes me into the wall kissing me.
- Yo I think you got the wrong idea bro.- I tell him shook.
- Oh c'mon Kiara. - he tries to kiss me again and when I'm about to push him away he grabs both my hands so I can't move. I scream "stop" and paralyze.
JJ's pov
I tried kiss some other girl to forget Kie and it didn't work. All I thought about was Kie. She's talking to this random guy and I've never been this jealous on my life. He's been flirting with her all night. Suddenly they disappear together. No way! I drink more beer but something on my head says "Follow them JJ. Follow them JJ."
As I get into the back of the chateau I see her pressed into the wall screaming "stop"and him kissing her while grabbing her hands. The anger builds on my stomach. He's hurting her. I grab him and punch him hard over and over again. He touched her and she didn't wanted she said clearly said no. I'm so angry. I just imagine what would've happened if I didn't got here and that just makes me even more angry.
- DON'T EVER TOUCH HER AGAIN YOU GET ME?- I scream.
- JJ STOP YOU'RE GOING TO KILL HIM. JJ STOP!- she screams grabbing my hands. I look at her and she's terrified.
- GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HERE YOU HEAR ME??- I say
The asshole gets up in pain and difficult and goes away his face covered in blood.
- I don't need you to protect me! - she says. - I don't need anyone to protect me!
I look at her frozen. Is she seriously telling me this.
- Kiara are you fucking serious? Are u fucking kidding me?
- No I'm not I don't need you to protect me!
- Oh yeah so what would've happen if I didn't came here. I know you are these badass and strong woman but you clearly weren't in control of the situation here!
- I DIDN'T NEED ANYONE TWO YEARS AGO SO I DON'T NEED ANYONE NOW!
- What the fuck are you saying Kiara?- she isn't making any sense- I was just trying to protect you Kie you're being so stupid right...
- I DIDN'T HAD ANYONE WHEN I WAS RAPED TWO YEARS AGO SO I STILL DON'T NEED ANYONE!
When she says that my heart stops. She starts crying so heavily. I've never seen her like this. Suddenly it all makes sense in my head. The trouble sleeping, brushing me off when I tried to kiss her, yesterday night. I come closer to her and say:
- What??- I whisper. She looks into my eyes crying. She nods her head making sure I heard it right. She hugs me and I hug her back. She cries. She's desperate. She is letting it all out.
- It's okay Kie. I'm here for you.- I say rubbing her back. Some tears come down my face too. It breaks me seeing her like these. I pick her up bridal style while she cries and lay her on the bad on John B's place. I lay down beside her, my chest touching her back while I comfort her rubbing her arms. She cries.

AN: Hard one and really emotional. Hope you like it. I decided to post it today since you all were so keen on reading it. Follow me on twitter it's obxvibesz too.