Hate

Update on me pt. 2

I just talked to my mom. I told her I wanted her to give me a motivational lecture, but later. She kept asking what it is about even though it was 11pm. We both went to the balcony and I immediately started crying. We had a long chat, it's 12:15pm now. She told me I should take a break, gave me lot of examples such as her favourite singer and eating the same food daily. She told me it's ok to watch them less and still be a fan. It dosen't mean we have to own merch, react excitedly about them when we something related to them and show off. We just have to be happy ourselves.

I told her about the bugging feeling, she said if I take a break, I will emerge stronger and I might love them for the next 10 years even. If I lose my interest, it's ok cuz it's human nature. But that won't mean I hate them. Never, that's what I am sure of. She said that I should listen to other singers too. If I want a favourite, I should have the variety to choose from.

I'm going on a break... I hope to emerge as a stong and confident army and a better, stronger person. Wish me luck :)

(I will be active in the comments, just won't update)

~Author-nim 💜