Carla
It's registration day again tomorrow. After a coffee date with my friends we decided to go to a local bar and have some few drinks before calling it a night. When I came in, I took off my jacket and quickly turned. At first glance I thought I saw Samuel sitting at the bar. I shook my head in disbelief but the guy was facing the bar. It's not entirely possible he's here right now is it? Me and my friends sat a booth near the bar. I went up to get a drink and see if the guy really is Samuel. But as I got near he left. I never really got to see his face.
I talked to the Jeremy the bartender if he heard them talk. Jeremy is gay, which is why he's always on the look out for guys. As vividly as I can remember, Samuel is hot and might possibly his type once he sees him. Unfortunately he didn't notice or heard them talk that much. He says the one who ordered was his friend. I even showed him a photo of Samuel to see if he might look like that. He jokingly said that if he ever saw him, he won't forget his face. I don't disagree Jeremy. I really don't.
I thought to myself maybe it's just my imagination because whenever some guy comes up to me, all I can think about is him. How I miss him so much. How I want to finish business school and come home so I can finally be with him. I won't lie, every day I wait for a call, a message or any sort of notification on my phone that's from him. But for the past year, we only have small talks. I just tell myself, at least I get to hear his voice.
By the end of the night I took a cab to my apartment. Probably the new owners are done moving so there won't be much noise tonight.
The following day, I got up and prepared to go to the university to register for my classes. When I opened my door there were two guys going out. They're the new tenants probably. I started walking but I wasn't able to catch the elevator so I had to take the stairs. By the time I got out on the street I saw both of them again. The only thing I saw is their back and it seems like both of them are going to the same place I am. So I took a cab to get there faster. I'm planning to spend some me time at a coffee shop in the mall and maybe do some shopping. I always make sure to get some time for myself and write in my journal. If anyone was to read this, they'd probably read how much I miss Samuel. I think I write that in every entry.
After registering for classes I got outside of campus and went to the mall. I was browsing for some new clothes but for some reason I suddenly wasn't in the mood for this. So I proceeded to walk to the coffee shop and start writing in my journal again. I ordered my usual black coffee and sat at a two chair table. I always want to be alone when I'm in here. Also I have this dream that one day, that Samuel will surprise me and sit in the empty chair in front of me. I know it's a long shot. Sure a lot of guys come up and try to hit on me, but my shield, I speak to them in Spanish. It works like a wonder.
As I got settled in, I started to write.
"Today is the exact day that I left Spain to study abroad. It's been exactly 365 days now that I haven't seen Samuel in person and every day I miss him more. I try to always focus on my studies. In a way is it's a very effective but healthy distraction. I get to think of something else and finish my work at the same time. It's what I think about after that's hard.
Last night I thought I saw him at a bar, I tried to walk up to the guy but they already left. Hell even Jeremy didn't notice them leaving. Earlier the two new tenants went out and I think I heard them speak Spanish. So if one of them were to hit on me, speaking Spanish won't work. Though it's too early to tell that. Who know these guys might be my new friends. But what happens to my no guy friend rule?
I guess I have to compromise. Guy friend but no flirting allowed. No, my heart is reserved for Samuel. But who knows, when I come back will he already have someone else? He asked if he could visit me. But it's been a year and it still hasn't happen."
