Letters to Senator Bonteri

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Dear Senator Bonteri,

Wow it's been a while since I wrote something in here. I'm not sure if you heard or not, but I was accused of bombing the Temple. How the Council believed all the false evidence, I don't know, but I do know I've lost all faith in them. They cast me out when I needed them the most.

I had to go on the run, hiding in the Lower levels of Coruscant. I was trying to find who did this to me, and I had to team up with Asajj Ventress to do it. I know right, who would've though I would ever be working with Dooku's little pet? Anyways, I thought I had a lead, but I was being set up, again. The Clones found me and I was taken to prison.

The Council held a hearing, and kicked me out. Stripping me of my padawan status and ripping me from the only life, the only family I had ever know. It felt as though I had been shot through the heart.

To make a long story short, I went on trial and was almost sentenced to death. However, Anakin came bursting through the door just before the announcement. He claimed to have the real bomber with him, and who I saw next destroyed me. It was Barriss, one of my best friends, someone I trusted. 

I was later brought in front of the Council and they made up some bantha dung about how this was my "Great Trial" and that it was the will of the force and all that crap. They asked me back, and I almost did, but I just couldn't. I walked out, not looking back until Anakin stopped me.

It broke my heart leaving him. He was like a brother to me, and I loved him like family. He was the only one that believed in me, but I couldn't come back, not after everything that had happened. I couldn't trust the Council anymore.

I don't know where I'll go, but I can't stay here. I want to run to you, to be with you, but I don't even know if you're on Coruscant or even feel the same way as I do. I can't believe that I may never see you again. Goodbye Lux Bonteri.

Yours truly,

Ahsoka

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Ahsoka looked at the letter, and for the first time contemplated sending it. She was no longer a Jedi, so she could for attachments, feel love, truly and freely, but she stopped. She couldn't do this to Lux, she knew he would come looking for her, even if he didn't feel the same, and if he didn't feel the same, she didn't know what she would do. it would break her. She was so hopelessly in love with him. She decided it best that she move on, try to forget about him.