The Lies We Tell

Chapter 5

A/N: Thanks for reading my story! I know this chapter is a little short but I hope you enjoy it none the less. A little Chair as asked for you guys.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but except for most of the plot.

Now that Nate was gone I made my way back to the library to put my plan in motion. As soon as I walked in I saw Chuck and the girl sitting side by side on a couch he was whispering something in her ear and she was laughing and blushing at the same time. That’s it this girl has got to go!

I went to Serena’s side and started talking to her, trying to ignore Chuck and the girl. “Hey S! so tomorrow we should go shopping” I said. “Totally B! but I have to leave now, because I promised Dan I would meet up with him.” She said while getting up. “What!? You can’t leave me” I said if she leaves than it’s just going to be me and Chuck, and that bimbo. “I’m sorry B but I promised Dan we would meet up” I knew I couldn’t stop her so all I did was agree. “Fine but tomorrow we will go shopping” I said as I gave her a kiss on the cheek.

That Jenny girl also got up and said “mind if I go with you Serena, my dad will be mad if I stay out too long.” Serena with a smile said “sure Jenny you can come!” this was my chance to make sure the girl did not show up again to our social gatherings. With an evil smile I said “Chuck shouldn’t you take her home, after all you’re babysitting her right?” as always him being the master of hiding his feelings if he had any said “she can get home on her own, she knows the way” he got up and gave her a kiss on the cheek “I’ll see you later” he said while winking at her. “I’ll call you later B!” Serena called out as she left the library. Leaving just me and Chuck well other people too, but they didn’t really participate in our circle of friends.

“Just you and me like always” whispered Chuck in my ear. I felt his breath on my neck and I felt shivers that ran down my back. “I should probably leave too” I said though I really wanted to stay and see what happened. “Come on Blair loosen up, it’s just you and me now” said Chuck. “Why don’t you go after your friend, since you care so deeply for her” I said, God why did my voice sound like that! I have to control myself and play it cool. “Blair you know very well that you’re the only one I ever want twice” That Mother Chucker! He brought her to my house on purpose knowing it would upset me, I glared at him as he said “you look very sexy when you’re jealous” ughh he is so irritating “I wasn’t jealous, why would I be jealous?” I said. “Come on Blair let’s get out of here” he said as he pulled me out the library and down the hall to his room.

As soon as he locked the door to his room he approached me. I knew what would happen yet I did nothing to stop him, because I wanted him to continue. “We shouldn’t Chuck” I said as he made his way towards me, he stop for a bit and said “Tell me to stop Blair, look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t want to” tell him! Why can I just tell him I don’t want to “I…” but I did want to and so instead of telling him I walked towards him and kissed him.

As his lips met mine felt my whole body explode with pleasure. He pushed towards the wall and I wrapped my legs around him our lips never parting. I felt his hands move up my legs and his lips started to kiss me down my neck. I began to take his jacket off and undo his bow-tie. He then carried me towards the bed, took off his shirt and was on top of me in a second. He was so beautiful I loved seeing him without a shirt especially when he was on top of me. We had done this many times before, never really going all the way but getting really close. And today was no different than other times.

As he continued kissing my neck he began to lift my dress up, I did nothing to stop him except help him get my dress off. He stopped for a second to stare at my body, but with him I never feel insecure. “You’re so beautiful” he said as he began to kiss me down my neck all the way to my breast. It is than that he began to suck on the side. I knew I would have a hickey later but I didn’t care. It’s not like Nate would see anyways, me and him never went this far. Nate! Oh God this is wrong! But it feels so right. I brought his face towards mine and we both knew that was the signal to stop, we’ve done this so many times and we both understood each other. He then rolled off me and just laid beside me.

We were out of breath but neither of us spoke. “If he ever finds out he’s going to hate us” was all he said. I knew what I was doing was wrong and I could never blame Chuck because he never forced me to do anything, we just sort of happened. By the time we realized our actions it was too late we had gone too far. And, even though he pretended not to care I knew he did. Nate was his best friend and I knew he didn’t want to betray him like this, but we could just never avoid each other.

“I know, which is why he must never find out and we have to be careful not get caught” I said as I was sitting up and putting my dress back on. “So this is going to keep on happening?” he asked with a grin on his face. “No I still think we should stop, but if it does happen he can never know” I said. “Come on Blair you always say that it’s going to stop but it never does” he said his voice pleading. “But that’s because you never try!” I said with a harsh tone.

That’s when I noticed his face change, he quickly got up put on his shirt readjust his bow-tie, put on his jacket and finally faced me as he said “Fine Blair if that’s how you want it, from now on I will not pursue you anymore, I will not taunt you, and this will never happen again unless you pursue it. You win” and with that he was out the door.

What the hell did I do? But this is what I wanted, for Chuck to accept that we should end. For some reason it didn’t feel like I won. Chuck was the one person I could always rely on, he’s the one that gave me confidence. It was a weird relationship that we have and perhaps it was immoral but that’s the way we were. I was with Nate because I loved him, and I was with Chuck because I desired him. I knew he felt the same way; it’s true that he never took a girl twice. I always thought that he came back to me because we never truly had sex. But, I also think that it was his way of coping with things. He knew that I would always be there no matter how much I said no. It was a game we both loved to play. Could it be really be over?

A/N: ok so I know this chapter’s short but I think the content makes up for it. So next chapter I’m going to focus on how Blair deals with this new Chuck who doesn’t taunt her, and I will also show another flashback of their previous history. Reviews are greatly appreciated! :] and follo me on tumblr: igetlostinwords.tumblr.com