The Lies We Tell

Chapter 7

A/N: Sorry I haven’t updated but I hope you guys are still with me. Anyways enjoy this chapter and please review, I would really appreciate it :]

“I want you Chuck Bass, I’ve always wanted you” I said

“Are you sure?” he asked as he reached for me.

“I’ve never been more sure in my life” I responded as I let him pull me towards him.

24 HOURS EARLIER

It’s been exactly ten days since I’ve seen Chuck and I have to say it was killing me. I knew that we were both doing the right thing because I belonged with Nate, and well Chuck was Chuck. My parents would never approve and he would never be interested anyways.  So for these many reasons I knew that we had both made the right decision to stop fooling around. But, now that I don’t have Chuck to entertain me, Nate seems to be different.

I don’t know if it’s because I never paid enough attention but when I talk it seems like he never listens, all he ever wants to do is make out, and to be honest I feel nothing when I kiss him. And, Serena is always off with her new boyfriend Dan, whoever that is. How did things change so much?

I was writing all of this in my diary when my phone went off, it was Nate.

“Hey Babe, want to do something tonight?” he asked “Like what?” I responded.

“I don’t know let’s go to the club, we haven’t gone there in a while” he said. The club? That’s the last place I want to go, all he does is dance with Serena and now that Chuck’s not around I’ll be bored to death. “No let’s do something else” I said, “We can go on a double date with Serena” I added, I’ve been dying to meet this Humphrey boy. “Umm yeah sure” he said a little cold “Great I’ll call her to let her know, I’ll talk to you later” I said as I hung up the phone.

I quickly dialed Serena’s number and waited for her to answer “What’s up B!” she said in a cheery voice “Don’t make plans for tonight we’re going on a double date” I informed her “who exactly is we?” she asked “You and your boy toy with me and Nate obviously” I said rolling my eyes, she can be really dumb sometimes. “Umm I don’t know if that’s a good idea” she said a little nervous, “What’s going on Serena? Ever since you came back you never seem to want to hang out anymore.” I said, playing the you left me card always got her to do things “Fine where do we meet?” she asked. “Just come to my place at seven” I informed with a smile on my face she always fell for it. “Okay but B please be nice” she said “I’ll try my best” I responded and quickly hung up.

I quickly went to get ready and when I least noticed they were waiting downstairs.

I made my way down and saw Serena with this scrawny boy, he wasn’t ugly to look at but he was no Chuck, or Nate. “So B this is Dan” she said a little nervously. “Umm hi” he said a little uncomfortable “I’m Blair” I said no emotion on my face.  “Where’s Nate” Serena asked, “He should be here soon” I responded.

Just as I said that the elevator doors opened and out came Nate Archibald. I have to admit looking at him isn’t the same as it was when we first started dating. And, even than it was always Chuck that got the most reaction out of me. “Hey” I said as I went and kissed him slightly on the lips. “You guys ready?” Nate asked.

“This is Dan” Serena said “Hey man I’m Nate” Nate said as he shook Dan’s hand. “So where are we going?” asked Dan. “To this new restaurant that opened, I heard it’s good” I announced. We all rode the elevator down, which was pretty awkward to say the least.

As we took a cap to the restaurant I couldn’t help but think what was Chuck doing, since he wasn’t hanging out with us? But no I can’t think about him right now, I should forget about him unless its friend related.

Once we got to the restaurant we were seated at the table I asked to be reserved for us. The restaurant looked really nice, there were waiters dressed in tuxedos and the atmosphere was very sophisticated just how I liked it. “So said Nate you go to our school?” he asked Dan as he took a sip of his water. “Yes I have been since sixth grade” he responded sarcastically. “Hmm I never noticed you” responded Nate a little mean. What’s his deal tonight anyways? I thought he was noble and all; Chuck’s the mean sarcastic one, which suits him better anyways. Serena gave Nate a mean look and said “Well yeah Dan’s a little quiet” while holding his hand, is it just me or is there a lot of tension here. If you’ll excuse me said Dan while getting up. “Nate what’s wrong with you, why are you being so mean?” demanded Serena, “Come on S it’s just a little fun” I said, what’s the big deal anyways, I should call Chuck and maybe we can mend things. “While you two fight I’m going to the lady’s room.” I announced as I got up from the table.

I left them bickering and made my way towards the bathroom, but if I do call Chuck what am I supposed to say? What if he’s with someone anyways? What the hell! So I took my phone out of my purse and dialed his number without thinking about it any longer. I sat down as the phone begin to ring, one ring, two, three, maybe he’s not going to answer. Just as I was about to hang up I heard “Blair” I was silent for a moment because I didn’t know what to say “I miss you” I blurted out without thinking, but it’s true I do miss him. “What about what you said?” he asked, I could hear from his voice that he was a bit nervous. “I know it’s wrong, but I also know that I can’t stay away from you” I said, what if he rejects me? “Where are you now Blair?” he asked, maybe he wants to come and get me. “On this stupid double date with Serena and new boy toy” the line was silent for a moment, it might have been only two seconds but to me it felt like an eternity. “You should stay there” was all he said, so I guess he’s not interested after all. “I’ll see you around B” he said and then he was gone.

This is all my fault I knew he never cared about me, that stupid Mother chucker he won. This is probably what he wanted to get me to tell him I cared and then he would laugh at my face and say he didn’t care about me in that way. I was probably just a good flirt to him and that’s all. I wasn’t ready to go back out there so I sat on chair and tried my best not to cry. Once my face was composed I left the bathroom and made my way back to our table. But, as I was getting closer I could see Nate and Serena discussing something, she seemed to be upset but I didn’t know why. They couldn’t see me and so as I got closer to see what was going on I couldn’t help but overhear Serena say “I didn’t come back for you  Nate, Blair’s my best friend and she loves you” what is she talking about? “But at the Shepard wedding? I lost my virginity to you Serena” what!? They had sex!

How could they do this to me! Before they could see me I hurried up and left the restaurant. As I was leaving I saw Dan coming my way from who knows where. “Are we leaving?” he asked with a confused look on his face “I am” I said as I left the restaurant. I can’t believe Nate and Serena did this to me, she’s supposed to be my best friend!

That’s when I realized something, me and Chuck had been doing the same thing to Nate for years now. But, for us it’s different we can help it, and we both knew when to stop. Chuck why did have to tell me to stay with Nate! And Nate I had been saving myself for him all this time because I knew it was going to be special, but now how can it be?

I should’ve just slept with Chuck at least than it would have been honest between us. And why not? Nate slept with my best friend, maybe I can sleep with his. It wouldn’t be bad either I have always wanted Chuck. Chuck, Chuck, Chuck!

“We’re here” said the cap driver. Without knowing it I had taken a taxi and as I looked up I saw where we had stop. I got out and I knew there was a reason as to why I was here. I rode all the way up to the last from of the building. As the elevators door opened and I saw him standing there I knew what I was doing was right, because it had always felt right.

I walked towards him and looked him right in the eyes as I said “I want you Chuck Bass, I’ve always wanted you” I said.

He seemed to be a little confused at first but I think he understood what I was saying because he recovered quickly and said

“Are you sure?”

“I’ve never been more sure in my life” I responded as I let him pull me towards him and lead me towards his room.

A/N: so again sorry that it took this long to update, but with a school break coming up I hope to write more often. Anyways to any of you who have a tumblr follow me! if you’re following my story and follow me on tumblr I’ll follow back, just send me a message on fan fiction telling me your name so I can know who you are. My URL  is igetlostinwords.tumblr.com