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𝑇𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑣𝑒: 𝐹𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠

𝐴𝑀𝐴𝑅𝐼𝐴 𝐼𝑉𝐴𝑁𝐸𝑆
5-29-20
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It had been a few days since I had saw Dom after he left a few days ago . Like I didn't see him PERIOD'T. I kinda felt played even though I didn't do anything with him the time he was here . Like I helped you for days and days and you just leave without a letter or a heads up . You welcome ! I know he did me dirty but this salty feeling is starting to get annoying. If he wanna be a jerk as always let it be . I don't need his TOXIC ass anyway . I still sound salty don't I ? I'm sorryyyy it's hard . He was my only friend I had . Now mostly I've been hanging out with my dad . And he's starting to get distant from me to. But I think he's dating again . He tends to get distant when he has a little miss thang around . It low key makes me depressed when I'm all alone . That's why I'm holding this bottle of half gone Hennessy . I know it's sad but I don't know what to do. I don't have any friends. I kinda wish I had a best friend when I was growing up . I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a knock on my front door . "oH sHiT"! Thinking it was my dad I fell on the floor trying to stop from falling on the floor . I was dumb drunk and I know if my dad sees me like this he's gonna scold me . Even though I'm grown .

I pulled my robe on my little skimpy sleep outfit . And I walked to the door holding on to the wall. I opened the door and that signature smell hit my nostrils . I quickly looked up at Dom . I rolled my eyes and shut the door almost . But he opened it and pushed into the house. "wHaT dO yOu wANt dOm"?! I sloppily walked back to the couch and fell on it grabbing my bottle . I was about to drink it but he snatched it from my hands . "Why is you drinking this shit like some water this big ass bottle"!?. I frowned at his mad face . "I'm lonely Dom you left me"... I mumbled it out . I guess he heard me because he sat on the floor in front of me . And grabbed my hands . "I had business to take care of Amaria and I thought you wouldn't even care if I left I'm sorry I didn't know". My eyes widened. He said sorry . Willingly. Wow progress.

I felt stupid for disclosing my feelings to him were not even dating or even on that level . Sometimes I hate myself . I'm tired of being a burden to my Dad or people . I want to just leave sometimes and take the burden off of the people I'm around . I kinda see why I don't really have any friends. I guess I'm to lame or not cool enough for these people out here . I thought it I was ok but my mental heath was starting to take a bad turn in my life . "I'm sorry I'm so stupid for saying that". He sucked his teeth and lifted my chin up. "Your not dumb for disclosing your feelings". I felt a wet tear roll down my face . And his thumb wipe it off . "Don't cry Mamas". My heart jumped a little at the name . I put my head into his shoulder and he picked my legs up . Wrapping me around him . He carried me to my room and into my bathroom. He turned on my bath water and pored some bubble bath into the tub . I pulled my clothes off while he pulled out a blunt and lit it . I climbed in the tub and washed the liquor smell off me . "Dom am I weird"? He looked at me and nodded no . I smiled small. "Your not weird your just deeper than other females and out here".