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𝐴𝑀𝐴𝑅𝐼𝐴 𝐼𝑉𝐴𝑁𝐸𝑆 6-25-20
As I sat my new phone down I looked at the wall in front of me. I hadn't talked to Dom since yesterday when he left the hospital . nor have I called him and he hasn't called me . I still felt heartbroken because I don't know if we were ever getting back together after that . As I sat there I felt bored like I didn't know what to do . I got in my car driving to the movie theater . When I got it I wanted to see some Scary movie I had seen a trailer for . Yes I loved scary movies . After I paid for my ticket I bought a drink and went to my movie theater. When I sat down I pulled out my phone and recorded the movie theater. After the boring movie I went straight back home . I had deleted that video of me crying off social media nobody really had saw it only like 10 people because I deleted fast off my computer. I had got my new phone this morning after a break of morning drinking . My happy attitude had been deteriorating. I was just moody and depressed more often . I was drinking a lot more to calm down my overthinking.
My dad had stopped by a minute ago and he Almost saw me drunk but I think he knew because I fell on the floor while I was walking. I was starting to get sober because my dad looked a little disappointed. And I never wanted him to look at me like that . I got up off my counter and turned on some music cleaning up my semi messy house . When I was done I was immediately hit with that depression feeling again . It was starting to piss me off . I was longing for something. I don't know what it is but I needed it . I grabbed my bottle of vodka and chugged it Down ignoring the bitter taste . I felt my head spin sluggishly. I got up and went to my balcony . I opened the door walking to the railing staring down at the pretty nightlife . All I wanted to do is experience life . All I Wanna do is live my life to the fullest . I got on the ledge not feeling one bit of scared .
My feet were steady but gracious . Even in my drunken stage I could easily walk on a ledge without any complications. I almost yelped when I felt someone yank my body back off the ledge and onto the balcony floor . I immediately knew it was Dom. "What the fuck was you doing"!? I moved away from him going into the house . Picking up my bottle of vodka chuggin the rest of the vodka down . He snatched the bottle away from me making some of the alcohol drool down my chin . I frowned and pouted at him . "Why did you do that you could have messed up my sweater"? He looked at me grimly . "Don't you care about your life Amaria you could have slipped and fell to your death"! I giggled he sounded like someone out of a movie . I stopped giggling when he grabbed my chin harshly . "WHAT THE FUCK IS FUNNY AMARIA YOU COULD HAVE DIED"!!?
I snatched away from him rubbing my jaw . "I don't care Dom If I had died you don't even care it's whatever ". The words came out my mouth faster than I could thing . But my body sent me into a giggling fit . Dom just stared at me with hurt in his eyes . "Whatever"? I nodded touching his lips . He leaned down kissing me . "We're over Amaria I cant do this shit with you delete my number don't call me fo nun else". It immediately sobered me up when he said that. I hopped off the couch stumbling to him . He caught me before I fell on my face . He shook his head nodding away . "Dom you wanna leave me"? He looked at me concerned. "I can't see you like this it's fucking my head up I'm saving yo ass every three seconds"! My face became cold . "NO ONE ASKED YOU TO SAVE ME DOM IVE ONLY ASKED YOU TO COME ONCE AND THAT WAS IT DONT HOLD SHIT AGAINST ME LIKE THAT EVER . THIS IS WHY IVE BEEN SINGLE FOR SO LONG I WISH I NEVER MET YOU DOM . YOUR A FUCKING BIT-"!
Before I could finish the sentence Dom grabbed my chin harshly . I know it wasn't his hardest but it still made me go into to shock . I couldn't cry I was just stuck . When Dom came to reality with what he said he tried to speak but I cut him off . "Leave". He sighed grabbing his keys leaving . I slammed the door shut locking it . I slid down to the floor and busted out crying . Was I that hard to deal with. My jaw was hurting plus my heart . He broke up with me . Like foreal foreal .
awww nooo🥺 I been gone for a minute but I'm back now 🧐 Sorry😐 Alright Peace y'all know what to Do ...👀
