Believe

||Chapter 15~Liz and Amanda's purpose||

||Amanda's POV||
Liz was asleep beside me facing the other way. I didn't want Liz to know that I am a spy this way. But I knew that one day she would find out. Now that she know's, all I'm going to do is cause problems. No one is going to look at me the same. The truth is that I don't want to be a spy anymore. I like working with people and training for a good purpose. Not training to destroy or terrorize.

I know I probably can't change that now since all of this happened in one night. Of course I can't be trusted, that's how it always goes. But something tells me that Liz isn't fully angry at me. I can tell she's trying to understand what's going on, why am I here or am I just here to show her what's she missing in her life.

She's had partner, to partner, to another partner, and all of them died surprisingly. I figured that she loved each partner she had, but they died from whatever mission they were on in the past. Now that she found me, she actually really likes me and feels like I'm the one.

She doesn't feel the urge to cancel me out, but she has the urge to understand why is this happening. Constant partner replacements had her overwhelmed and still does. The flashbacks, the long talks. Everything overwhelms her.

The way she handled how she got the news that I was a spy was how she always reacted to each partner she had when someone told her what they done in the past. She reacted out of angry, confusion, and sadness. Liz just wants something good to happen to her. She doesn't want to feel the pain she's been feeling for years.

I thought about it and made my final decision, who cares if I'm a spy or not. I love her, she's my missing piece. I don't care if I bring danger to her and her friends, as long as I know I can just protect them. Running away will already cause more problems then there already is.

Liz turned and faced me. "Can't sleep still?" Liz asked in a low tone. "No." I responded. "I'm sorry for being so rough and mean to you a few hours ago. I know I shouldn't care that you are a spy because I should love you no matter what. But, I guess I over reacted because I thought you were going to be like my past partners. Die from a burden or grudge you've been holding..Now I just feel like an asshole."

"I understand why you reacted that way too. Mainly I feel like this is my fault because I could've told you sooner. And to be honest I thought about leaving the hotel and go somewhere else in New York. I felt like I would cause more problems and should leave to fix that. But then I realized that if I leave that will cause more problems too." I implied. Liz hugged me. "I'm so sorry for making you feel that way..." She whispered. I hugged her back smelling her nice lemon smell. "It's fine.."

All of this made me now tired and overwhelmed. I yawned putting my head on Liz's shoulder. "You're tired now aren't you." She said. I nodded in response. Liz fell back on the bed with me. "Sleep is important.." I laughed softly and kissed Liz's cheek. Laying on her feels like I'm safe from the world. Her lemon smell makes me feel calm. All of these things made go to sleep slowly.

I never want this moment to end...