Lucy pov: We all sat on the sofa drinking as a celebration for jj. "Put on the album then" talia squealed. The bluetooth speaker connected and jj played his album from top to bottom. First was what you been on, the beat was so sick. We played the album, so far all the songs were so good. I could see that Simon was proud of his best friend, jj had completed all this goals and completely changed the YouTube scene forever. Slowly we made our way through the songs , talking about each one with jj. He explained his thought behind each one. It then came to the last song, MILLIONS, the one Simon had spoke to me briefly about . The song started, I loved the beat and how the song flowed. I listened carefully to the lyrics, talia looked at me worried. Jj had his head down low, not showing his face. "You fucking ruined me man, but you don't care. Every message Id send you'd just air". Jj wasn't this loud person all the time, fans often thought Jj was exactly like "KSI" he had a softer and more broken side. I knew the beef with him and Deji did ruin him. The chorus was very catchy, yet Jj still kept his head down low, Simon stared sympathetically at him. "Cuz I'm not on cloud nine".
Verse about Lucy:
"I know I'm not easy to be around Hard times, you're holding me down And I like how you smile Even when I make a fool of myself Still, you want nobody else And that shit really helps Diamond in the rough, you know I mean it You don't want the money or the fame You'd rather leave it Leave it just to help out all the people with their mental Fundamental, you are my sentimental dealer Turning down my compliments I really hate it, since I'm tryna boost your confidence I really made it since you helped me with my issues Stronger than ever Want you to know it Forever"
I sat there shocked, tears welled up in my eyes. Clouding my vision while the chorus rang. For some strange reason I knew. I knew this was about me. It had never occurred to me how strongly he truly felt about me. Some of the lyric hit me like a pound of bricks. It all became so clear to me. The song suddenly stopped, my brain had cut off my surroundings. I think talia and Simon both knew , so they swiftly left the living room. I looked up to see jj with his head in his hands. My voice cracked breaking the silence, "I love you". His eyes looked deeply into mine and said "I love you". In that moment I didn't care about anything else, I cared about him. I kissed him gently and snuggled into him, talia popped her head round the corner and called Simon to join us again. Thoughts still rushed through my head. Me and jj weren't even official yet, we're things going too fast. My mind was fucked. The rest of the night was a buzzed blur, we celebrated jj and all he's done.
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AN:/ so this chapter was kinda a monumental one, (I have no idea what that word means lol) 😂. But like , millions was my favourite song on the album and was written about his real gf soooo I thought it would be good. I also wanted to add a lil on blm I wanna write a lil more on that in the next chapter tho. What is going on in the world atm is absolutely horrible, I never thought in 2020 people would still have to be protesting for equality, especially in race. I seriously can't believe it.
