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Major Arcana ..Let Go of me!

I've been living alone for the last 10 years , I dropped my masters and my main focus was to get a nice job and have a career on my own , build a life , travel and maybe someday I could have a family just like any other girl .

But when I met my person , well I don't think I can call him my person anymore , I thought this was everything I wanted and needed so that I can proudly say "Am happily feeling complete and grateful with my life" if anyone asked me .. Except when it comes to my surrounding of friends and at work the only question they ask is " Why am I still single ? " A beautiful lady my age should have already been married with kids .. And this was called normal and acceptable where I live .. !

Sorry to disappoint you, am single / taken / not knowing where I'm heading / troubled / waiting for a miracle to happen ~

What Can I say ? .. Single because no one fits me and I'd rather be single than getting involved with the wrong guy , get myself into some mess and ending up disappointed .. I'd rather not date ,not love at all ! Who cares about getting old anyway ,I have work , I a darn good life ! Especially with the current situation I am in ! That's why I believed and still believe into those general weekly readings of tarot cards .. My energy wasn't budging much ..

I recalled that one time when a great lady did her magic but for me it was only for entertainment purpose , and I knew it won't be always accurate but fine , I can listen at least and expand some thoughts .. 

She looked at those 6 cards she pulled and said : " Oh waw " !!

I mean "Please don't Waw me !!"  I pouted terribly . That's when you give the person in front of you some hope and positivity then who knows it might turn to the complete opposite once the reading is over !

The short-haired woman was looking down, fully focused and started talking like she was talking to herself , like Helloooo I'm here still ! Her voice was croaky she muttered : " Alright , so on your side , you've got the Ten of Pentacles, The Chariot and The Judgement card " , she seemed intense, sticking out her tongue at first then biting her lower lip !! ... Okay Lady don't give me that look what's going on !! She raised her face : " You're heading very fast towards stability , ummm it could be with someone else but I see this more as ... umm stability within yourself ! " , I was relieved for a moment , she went on : " I feel like there's been a lot of changes, transformation on your part and you're getting to this point of REALLY COMFY where you're at .. Comfy and it's happening really fast ! "

Oh Lord somebody pinches me right now, let's have a little minute dance ! haha , you're probably wondering what's gotten into me , well .. me and my person are not meeting each other , not even texting ..nothing! , and damn I feel really chill and good ...Was he that much of a toxic energy to me ? probably !!

She scratched her arm and I couldn't take my eyes off her big black swatch , she was skinny though but I guess her short boyish hair matched perfectly her taste ! She briefly gazed the second row of the deck : " For them ....very interesting cards here ..All MAJOR ARCANA "

Shoot ! Because I know very well that when a Tarot reading is predominantly made up of Major Arcana cards, the person will be experiencing life-changing events that will have long-term effects... Which means if am making changes then my person as well ! I should stop calling him "My" .. but it just came out spontaneously ...

The lady went on explaining : " They get The High Priestess, The Hanged Man and The Star ..Girl , they're thinking a lot about you ! "

Yes !! Burn !!  They should . Because I'm unique and awesome and hard to forget , I know that The Star Card brings renewed hope and faith, so much blessings by the Universe, which is basically entering a peaceful, loving phase in life, filled with calm energy, mental stability ! Yeah I get it , but why he's not calling if am still on his mind ?! ...Back to this woman, who was staring at me and nodding her head : " I feel like this person is starting to open up more and more to their intuition , and their intuition in their heart has "YOU" in them ! and even if they're not doing anything about it with The "Hanged Man" being there, they can't stop thinking about you.. Woopss !! "

Did she just twitched her lips mockingly !? I honestly was in no place to argue or talk back at her , simply because I was emotionally manipulated. Besides, these are the cards' energies and what she's saying is crazy, it was so relatable!!

For the 3 cards left that were meant to give more insights into the connexion she stated: " You've got the Knight of wands, the Seven of swords and the Three of wands .. I feel like the more you wait..if you're waiting , because am sure you've waited in the past for quiet some time , but the more you wait , the more you're like : There's absolutely nothing I can do , thus, I need to detach from this " .... and I feel like you did detach from this connexion !! " ...

This woman was really ..!!! SPOT ON thank you , now that I'm reflecting back on my relationship with this person , I came to realize that I've given him so many things and the most important thing was TIME , my precious TIME!! I have literally wasted it over this so-called relationship , excuse me , I can't even give it a name (HAHA so pathetic) , I did everything I could to make things work and try to be someone for this man but all in vain , thought I got some special spot in his heart but it wasn't enough . It was never enough, I needed more cause I deserve more! ... 

The lady grabbed another set of cards and mumbled : "Let's see what the universe has" and dropped 3 more cards : The Devil card in reversed, the King of Pentacles and The Justice cards and looked at me firmly in the eyes , she said :" None of this anymore, none of this crap: of thinking that you're the worst kind of person and that something is wrong with you, and I think that person held those thoughts about you for some time but not anymore because this person wants to make things right this time , they've pointed their finger towards you a lot in the past but they stopped doing that ...."

Do I have to smile widely at her words ? Are you kidding me??

After the 'Let go, the fast changing status , the chill and being better off alone mood' you walked me into , you're telling me that he wants to make things right ? That man is ignoring me !!  He's busy with his woman, he's given me only hard times throughout the years ... So no I'm just ignoring that last part , simply because this energy doesn't fit with him .. 

He walked away from me ... That horrible man I truly loved .. He left ! Why would I want to even expect him to come back and let him ruin me again ?

I snapped out instantly , it's like she heard what I was thinking ; 

She smirked  : 

"Hmmm ...Don't you want to know what he's up to now, and in the coming future ?"