~no pressure no diamonds~

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i'm back

honestly life's been pretty difficult

i'm trying so hard to get good grades

and i guess it's paying off.

got the same grade over and over last term

was really happy

but now i feel that the pressure i'm putting on myself is dragging me down

into an abyss

where i can't get out

no pressure, no diamonds 

that's what they all say.

maybe, but has anyone asked the carbon and the coal how it feels?

if it even wants to be a diamond?

if it wants to be forced into being something pretty?

why can't it be loved by what it is?

there are other uses for it, why can't people accept that?

the world forces you to be something you don't want to be

and i think that's the thing that's bugging me.

not the pressure

not the need to feel wanted or special

but the fact the world pressures us into becoming something we don't want to be.

just think about that.