elysian // Billie Eilish

X // Recherché

Addisyn's POV

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hello UCLA students! as the semester is ending this week for many of you, just as a reminder for those of you who do not yet have a plan for off campus housing, you have one week left to figure out plans on where you'll be staying this summer and to take all of your personal items with you. if you need any guidance through this with finding a place y'all to our counselors they'll have some options for you if nothing else! thank you so much for all being with us this semester at UCLA we hope to see you back next year!

ugh great.

i have no clue where i'm going

i've got two options, neither are easy.

go back home, get my old job back bum it out and take care of my younger siblings for the free cost of housing or use what savings i do have, barely enough, to buy a studio apartment outside of LA and find a job for the summer.

my mom expects me home so she can slack off as a mother again but fuck it, i'm an adult im not gonna watch her kids all day everyday and have to be responsible for them.

option two is a little less dreadful.

thinking of any other possible options that i could sustain, the moment billies mom told me i was always welcomed in her home, sat in the back of my mind as a last resort.

seeing as me and billie aren't in a great spot it'd be inappropriate, yet at night i fantasized the idea of living with billie though i've been avoiding her.

actually the two almost three weeks i haven't texted, called or really seen billie around.

that is except for twice in class to which she showed up.

the dark haired girl made her distance from me sitting across the room.

her body language didn't seam mad or upset just neutral less like exuberant self though, maybe a little saddened.

i let her be, honestly it took more will power than i'd like to admit to leave her alone.

she became so apart of my routine, that i actually seemed to find time for hobbies or things for myself, without her being around.

i thought about that alluring bright eyed girl way more i'd like to admit, even to myself.

small things reminded me of her, i didn't wanna let go of even the thought of her.

billie was different in so many ways compared to my past relationships.

the way she wanted me in parts of her life no body else did.

she talked about bringing me on family trips, traveling, meeting her extended family and friends.

billie didn't want me for show or for herself, the look on her face when i left looked sore.

like she lost apart of her.

although we started as just friends with benefits she became the person i put all my energy into and vise versa.

she took everything she did for me seriously, i wasn't just a convenient fuck buddy for her, i knew that.

though billie expressed she didn't date or like romance i seemed to be her exception to her personal wall.

she enjoyed the cutesy romance parts sometimes even more than i did.

she was different, not mention the fact she didn't have a penis was contributing to that fact.