Deep blue

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A silence feel between them now, not awkward..but full of too many unspoken things. Keegan leaned far over Logan's bed, resting his elbows on the mattress. Both staring at each other not daring to break the contact but not brave enough to move any closer. The thoughts that damn near had driven Logan crazy just a little bit ago had returned in full force and he couldn't help what came out of his mouth next.
"Keegan...I...what was that about..down there in the water? The hug. And..the date thing?" Logan was unable to hold it back anymore. It had been far too long..far too many nights tossing and turning trying to understand what was between them. Friendship? Brother-hood? Love? He didn't want anymore questions or mysteries. He wanted the truth..no matter if it was what he wanted to hear or not. Logan knew that if he didn't ask Keegan, the quiet, keeping-to-himself man point blank..he might never know and that thought killed him more than anything. The uncertainty.
The look on Keegan's face was unreadable but he instantly seemed uncomfortable, and moved his face, that was dangerously close to Logan's, away. "Kid..can we not do this, please. I..I'm not good at this kind of stuff. I'm really just the worst kind of awkward." Keegan stuttered, he seemed hesitant as he rubbed the back of his neck anxiously but then Logan gave him the same reassuring smile that he'd given to Logan earlier and it seemed to be just the push the man needed. He leaned forward towards Logan, not as close as before but still close enough to feel his heart beat quicken. He reached over and grabbed Logan's good hand, Logan felt his fingers twine with his and a crushing relief wash over him, he squeezed back.
"Just tell me, Keegan." Logan whispered sitting up almost on the edge of desperation at this point. He heard Keegan clear his throat and breathe shakily. Logan found his breathing mirroring his. He knew that this was the point of no return. Keegan's eyes closed for a moment or two, he seemed deep in thought. Eyebrows pulled together in concentration before he opened his mouth.
"Look, I'll say it plainly. I'm pretty damn crazy for you, kid. From the moment I met you in those woods. You knocked me off my feet, kid. I've never wanted to get close to anyone..I've been there before and it always ends badly..but with you.. With you it felt as easy and natural as breathing. Shit..crazy for you isn't enough. I..I love you, Logan. You and your constantly messy blonde hair and the way you tell stories about your family with the most exhilarating smile that lights up your whole face, the way you always fall asleep on the couch after missions and talk in your sleep. The way you..the way you make me feel, I've never felt like this before. No one ever makes me laugh but you..it's just everything about you, Logan."
Logan felt his heart seize in his chest. So this was it. He did feel the same..fuck. And he knew about the sleep talking. Also, fuck. Keegan didn't look up at Logan until he said the words again.
"I love you, Logan. You don't have to feel like you need to say it back or if you don't feel the same..then I'm sorry about all this. I could just go? I could..I probably should-" Keegan made a move to get up, unwrapping his fingers from Logan's. The younger man panicked and grabbed Keegan's forearm to stop him from leaving with such force that the older man fell back in his chair. Logan ignored the slight pain in his ribs as he leaned over fully to Keegan, placing his other hand that wasn't being held, on Keegan's face. His fingers grazing over the sharp jaw and stubble that covered it. Keegan's eyes seemed to flutter a bit, leaning into the touch.
"Keegan..I've loved you from the moment you said 'Watch and learn, kid.' From all the times you stayed back and fought by my side, all those times you'd read in your chair and tell me the best parts, and when I'd fall asleep I'd be covered up and you'd still be watching over me. How could you ever think I wouldn't feel the same? Of course I do, Keegan..you have no idea how long I've wanted to be with you."
Keegan had a look of disbelief on his face and shook his head slowly before a smile of sheer happiness broke out that Logan couldn't believe belonged to the same man he'd fallen for. Then, Keegan closed the gap between their faces and crushed their lips together. /Finally/, was all that Logan could think. Little did he know, Keegan was thinking the same. The kiss was full of many things, months of pent up longing, pining, love, it was hard and rough..and yet the softest thing either had ever felt. Their mouths moved together in perfect sync, noses bumping together as the hand that was on Keegan's face slid down to his neck. The kiss lasted a few more seconds before Keegan pulled away, breathing hard, once again resting his forehead on Logan's his own hand coming up to stroke the younger's face.
"So, I guess we're still on for that date then?" Keegan let out a soft groan when Logan moved his forehead away from his and kissed at his neck. Logan nodded against him fervently.
"Oh yeah, definitely." Logan replied breathlessly. Keegan smiled again and let out that laugh that laugh that was now surely Logan's favorite sound.
"Glad to hear it. But uh..you probably should get some rest though, Logan." Keegan said biting his lip, looking like he was ready to go in for another kiss.
"Mmm..probably..but I think I'd like to kiss you some more first." With that their lips connected again and they both let out a nearly simultaneous moan of pleasure. They continued this for several more minuets getting lost in the feeling before Logan pulled away this time and beyond his control, yawned.
"Okay..so maybe sleep would be a good idea...if you stayed here with me, that is?" Logan questioned innocently, but it was deceitful thanks to mischievous smile on his face.
"Ah..of course, where else would I go? But really we should actually sleep, pretty sure we have to be up in less than 4 hours, as much as I do enjoy the kissing." He let his eyes drop down to Logan's kissed bruised lips longing to taste them again, but resisting. Well almost, he let himself give Logan one more kiss, lingering for a moment or two before he stood from his chair, and managed to squeeze himself onto the bed next to Logan, who instantly curled himself on Keegan's chest.
"You wait til morning, then I'll make you sick of kissing." Logan mumbled drowsily.
"Hah, I doubt it, kid." Keegan wrapped his arms around Logan completely, carefully avoiding his injured ribs and wrist then said, "night, Logan."
"Night Keegan, I love you." The laugh again from Keegan, only this time softer, sweeter almost in awe and he felt lips brushing against his messy blonde locks.
"Love you too, Logan."
Okay..maybe that was Logan's favorite sound.