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hey y'all.
as many of you know, a lot of crazy stuff has been going on lately. it's been kinda hard to write these past couple of weeks and this for me just really made it even harder.

it's sad that our people, in the middle of a freaking pandemic, have to be out here protesting for something we all should have had since the beginning of time! equality!

it makes me really angry seeing all these videos. police have always been a big fear of mine. when driving, i always make sure i'm not doing anything stupid like, not wearing a seatbelt & stuff like that because of the simple fact that just simply not wearing a seatbelt can get me pulled over and possibly killed.

as stupid as that may sound, little things like that have become a fear of mine because of all the police brutality and racism i've seen growing up. growing up a black woman, still becoming a black woman--crap like that scares me.

i took a couple days, just watching the news. i took a break from kpop, michael, all the things that i normally watch and just spent the day catching myself up on what's been going on in our community.

here where i live protests have been peaceful. the cops came out and protested as well...that was kinda odd to me but nonetheless i guess i appreciated it.

i've been signing petitions nonstop. i've been studying my history, because if y'all didn't know i'm sorta mixed. not with white but what does that matter really? anyways, i feel like my people are kinda ignorant to what's going on and what black lives matter means. what our history means. so i've been trying to self educate myself, teach myself the right stuff.

honestly y'all i've been tired. i'm tired of seeing my people get treated like this. i'm tired of having to work harder that other folks because of my skin color. i'm tired of feeling less than. i'm tired!! and i've decided with all the things going on that i'm more than likely going to take a break from wattpad.

i was. not going to lie, thinking about this before..because my depression has been just..through the roof lately. plus like i said i have writers block. but this really topped the cake and this is just my decision.

i might be on here reading sometimes cause reading is my peace, my escape..but..idk y'all. i'm not gonna be updating for a while more than likely. (edit: i will post the last zodiac i have had saved as a draft for a while though.)

i just wanted to come on here and say, to some. please stop tearing our people down and making us feel like we can't be angry or sad or whatever because of all this. let us speak! let us talk! because weather you like it or not, they'll listen to y'all before they ever listen to us. and that's all i can really say..i'm kinda lost for words.

i'm going to leave the links to the go fund me here..copy paste please! i'll also add the numbers for the petitions at the top in the media..just text those numbers and they'll send you a link. all those racist, ignorant, scum should be in jail for what they did to that man. so please sign these petitions, especially if you're younger like me, and you can't really protest but you want to do something.

i love y'all, stay safe. continue to wash your hands please. and i guess i'll be back soon...see you on the flip side.

-Anniasia.