Darken Souls Light Up At Some Point (Caydi Story)

I'm sorry Adi

All Tals pov and his mind also how he turns sad

I can't believe what I just told him he didn't say the full truth I did more than just call him a faggot and punched him. I told him that he shouldn't belong to this world and that you are a useless piece of trash that should just burn in hell because you have created and awful sin and I regret being with you  dumb bitch. To be honest I didn't mean to tell him that because I didn't want to hurt him. I was hurting inside after that phone call that my parents and I had. I felt pain anger sadness like if I couldn't. Feel anything anymore I couldn't even feel adis love anymore but I was angry and I let everything out on him even when I saw him tearing up I still went on and then I punched him but I couldn't even control my buddy it was so weird. I still love him though just not the same way I'm pretty sure he wants to take a break after everything I've done to him especially if I said I was going to protect him I feel so stupid. Maybe I'm the useless one maybe I'm just trash that has been made and I was just acting normal to hurt people I love I don't even what I'm doing anymore. Maybe I'm better of dead or to never love again. I fucking hate my parents so much they made turn into this. I kept on trying to apologize to Adi but all he did was look at me like if I injured him badly and I did I just want to be able to love him the same way again I kept on trying but he always ignores me fuck I wish he didn't do that I just want to talk to him again like my problems and also how muched I missed him a my boyfriend I was so happy back then but I fucked it up. Two months have passed since the incident that I did with him he just kept on ignoring
Me it was so annoying that he couldn't
Just forgive like that. I was really depressed at this point anytime he called me it was just to eat but I never felt like eating so he just placed the food under my room I eventually ate at some point and he will tell me to get out of the room but I just ignored him he didn't say anything else all he did was leave. One day I was just there by myself I was crying because I remembered the day I hurt him. I'm pretty sure he heard me because he said what's wrong I just ignored him and he got mad he said. If you're gonna keep on crying and not tell me then shut the fuck up bitch. I got sad and cried even more but I kind of deserved I eventually cried myself to sleep. The next day came and Adi told me to get out of the room I told him no and go away but he just came in because I always forget to lock the door he said before we talk take a shower plz.  Yeah I smelled bad but because I didn't feel like doing anything. He told me why I was so upset I told him it was because I messed up badly that I didn't want to tell him all those awful things that I said and I never ment to hurt him in anyway possible and that I was a fool for doing that especially after. I said that I will never hurt you and I broke my own promise and I still love you but ik that you don't and I want to go back with you. He just looked at me blankly bit he was also shocked he didn't even know what to say all he did was forgive me hugged me and left but I still felt sad no matter what.

Guys I hope y'all liked this chapter sorry for not uploading daily or weekly I felt really down and this story was based on my experience on depression