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Cantarella "We do this together"
An old fan-fiction, one of the first Taejin stories I tried to make back then ☆*:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:*☆. I remember clearly how I hated the fact that so many ff wrote Jin as a petite little omega who cried every day.
This fic came to my head the first time when I saw the 5th army zip where all of them wore blue and white clothing.
At first, it had nothing to do with omega dynamic, I was scared to touch that AU because it was confusing and heck I didn't even know the different between omega and beta at that time. The story was hard, it contained a sensitive topic (Jin's past) and a lot of mental health issue, I wrote Jin being so insecure and tried his best to change himself;
Yes, he is unstable because of his childhood trauma.
He was hurting but at the same time, he didn't know he was hurting that deep. This made him hurt Taehyung countless time, keep running from him. He thought that was for the best, I'm aware of how the reader is so upset with Jin but if we have that deep wound and flaw, I believe it would be so hard to heal from that.
Even till now, I don't even know if Seokjin already overcomes his fear and nightmare.
I don't think it would leave him completely.
THE STORYLINE IS HARD.
Believe me, when I said I almost choose a delete option, the storyline confused me and I often lost the story's track.
The medieval AU is surely hard to write, the rules, the kingdoms, and so on. Watching Merlin and used it as a basic foundation wasn't the best decision I made.
It was so messy, I know, up till now I still write a lot of messy stories. Please bear with me (((o(*°▽°*)o))).
I must apologies for leaving the fic for so long. I'm so sorry because I was so busy with my real life at that time, the last year of my high school was killing me at that time. I was trying my best to keep up but it's hard and the author-block too.....
Also the fact that I couldn't choose medical school bc financial issue was a really hard slap for me.
Being a doctor is my one and only dream but sadly I must let the dream go, I still dream about it but it's bittersweet. Still trying to tell myself that it's okay even though I can't be a doctor.
Honestly, I felt like the entire chapters were so boring and I kept blaming myself for being such a poor writer. I didn't touch the drafts for months and thinking maybe I can just leave it.
The comments and kudos were truthfully, really impacting my works. They made me want to write more but they also made me wanted to stop. It's complicated.
Chapter four catching phrases "Maybe I'm just a joke for you!" "But you're never a joke to me!"
Do you remember those lines from Taehyung to Seokjin? I love that chapter, where Taehyung exposed his raw feeling and Seokjin had no chance to avoid or ignore him!
IT WAS HARD TO WRITE SMUT. I don't think I can write smut again (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ).
I also wrote up to 7k for that chapter, unbelievable. I don't know that adding the aunty was good or a mood breaker but I'm happy that I could make a complete background story; also the facts about Seokjin's parents. The thing is, I admired Taehyung's will to chase after Seokjin in the story. I don't know someone can try that hard even though Seokjin rejected him so many times.
I love how I started it with soft smut and then the angst took over.
Taehyung wouldn't keep quiet, Seokjin couldn't run from him. He will chase after his omega because he knows that stupid man loved him back so this time he will fight and accompany Seokjin through everything. (´｡• ω •｡')
Honestly the first storyline, Jin left alone, Tae would go and attend his engagement party but I decided to change it. Instead of crying and getting mad to Seokjin's choice, Tae would go and find Seokjin. He would entwine their hands, accompanying Seokjin through the problem he learnt later.
Seokjin won't be alone to discover the secret of his clan, his father especially, why the mysterious person killed his entire clan. What the connection between his father with the northern kingdom. (￣▽￣*)ゞ
Tempted to wite about Hoseok and Yoongi
Yoongi was a beta and Hoseok was an alpha, I wanted to make their own story but at the same time, I don't think I can finish their story.
Truth be told
I didn't know the North Queen was Seokjin's aunty till the time I needed to write her. Yep, that was impulsive; the reason why his clan kept changing as the time went by and somehow she ended up as the main antagonist (*ﾉ∀'*).
In fact, I kinda fall in love with her and her tragic story. I want to write her as my original story but for now on she will stay in my draft till the right time.
How the society look at omega the society didn't look down to omega but they still prefer alpha, that was why Jungkook and Taehyung could happen. They didn't mock but the stereotype was there.
What exactly is Cantarella? Cantarella is a poison, without any odour or colour. I will explain the connection with Seokjin in the upcoming bonus chapter which I don't know when I will share with you all. Let's pray for it.
Seokjin's wolf form
Oh! I love that they could connect to their wolf and I wanted to write someone that can shapeshift, at first I thought about Taehyung but I wanted to highlight a strong omega and Seokjin ended up being the one with that power.
The first plan was alpha that could change and I almost wrote Jungkook fighting with Taehyung in their wolf form but eh, Jungkook won't do that because he didn't want to hurt Taehyung or Seokjin.
The ending was honestly a disappointment for me, I will post extras but I can't promise when. I tried to finish the story faster because I will go to study abroad and I'm sure I will not be active writing anymore since the access to write will be hard there (￣ ￣|||). I'm not sure I can have a VPN too.
Regret
I can't talk about other members too much, I want to write about Jimin who worked as someone who did the dirty job for prince Jk and his relationship with Namjoon. I also wanted to make it taejinkook but I can't write much about Jungkook ☆ｏ(＞＜；)○...
And so that was a short review about my journey writing Cantarella! If you have more question you can dm me in twitter or AO3/ my Wattpad and we can talk about it together or in another author's note 😊. Thank you so much for your support everyone, this story is here and finished because of all of you (っ´ω')ﾉ(╥ω╥)
🌟: You helped this helpless angst burrito to keep doing what she loves, you supported her and make her days happier than yesterday!
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Cantarella
Fanfiction"We do this together" Prince Taehyung loves his caretaker, Seokjin, since he was a kid. Taehyung's parents arrange his marriage with his bestfriend from the West Kingdom, Prince Jungkook. Things get ugly for a while after the moment Taehyung kisse...
