𝙞 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 - 𝙟𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙭 𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙠𝙖

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jake's pov

november 8th 2018 4:07 am

i haven't slept. i haven't eaten. i don't want to even be alive.

i love erika.

and only erika.

i'm sat in bed just announced mine and erika's breakup. just saying her head in my name breaks me every time, i wipe once again another tear away from running down my cheek.

i soon get the motivation to move, i pull myself out of bed after 5 days of not wanting to move or even breathe anymore, i hear some talking downstairs but ignore it, i go to the bathroom and see erika's makeup.

i instantly burst into tears and i just cry. i wipe my tears and get into the shower, i begin getting flashbacks to erika and i always making out in the shower. i just cry more and hit my head against the shower wall.

i then wash my hair and body then i do some face washes, i get out and wrap a towel around my waist, "jake!" i hear someone yell i just ignore it i go to my walk in closet, i pull on my underwear a photo of erika in a bikini falls out of my draw and i just stare at it.

a single tear shreds from my right eye, i pick it up and rip it in half. i then grab the box full of photos of erika and i and i sit on my knees and cry while ripping up the photos.

i stand up and kick the box, i continue getting dressed and once i finish i go to my door, i rub my eyes and yawn. i open the door and look around.

i breathe in the fresh air and begin walking downstairs and brandon one of my best friends look at me and smiles he hugs me, i dont even smile once, he takes me into the living room and everyone looks at me and smiles they all hug.

"jake! you're here finally!" anthony yells i nod my head and we all sit down and continue talking.. then i head up to my room and i go through some boxers under my bed.

i find my fleshlight (Sex Toy) i put it down on my bed and i slide off my shoes and i pull down my shorts, i'm a horny young man i need sex i can't live without sex.. i then take off my boxers and i play around with my penis for a few minutes getting it hard just thinking about hot models on instagram.

i soon enter the fleshlight and i go faster in and out of it while moaning softly, "y-yeah" i moan biting my bottom lip, i keep going faster and harder i keep going for 15 minutes then i cum all over a hand towel and i clean up and sit on bed, i soon hear footsteps coming into my room.

i look up from looking at the ground shannon.. erika's friends she looks at me and waves i wave.. "hi.. erika's downstairs" she says goes into the walk in closet to get erika's clothes, i nod slowly- fuck i need to take my cum towel downstairs to the laundry.. fuck my actual life.

i stand up holding my towel and i begin walking downstairs while looking down, i reach the end of the staircase and i look around i hear talking in the kitchen i quickly run to the laundry room and i throw my towel down.

i walk out and see erika's ass bent over i quickly walk back into the laundry room and breath really heavily.. "okay when you hear the door open just check and see if she's left" i say to myself.

"anthony how's jake been?" i hear erika's voice "he's not taking it good.. today was the first day he's come out of his room for 5 days.. i'm really scared i think you and him should talk" anthony says i agree but disagree with him.

"anthony even when i see a photo of him i burst out in.. tears" i hear her beginning to get upset, i peak out the door and see erika and anthony hugging, i walk out and slowly and silently walk upstairs, i reach my room and thor runs out the door.

"thor! back here now!" he barks and looks at me, "thor i swear to fucking god!" i scream he barks again and runs out i go to shannon in the walk in closet she looks at me while holding the ripped up photo of erika in a bikini.

"really jake?" she asks laughing a little "i'm sorry i was mad this morning" i say she rolls her eyes and grabs the 2 bags of clothes for erika, "did you see her?" she asks i look down and shake my head "i seen her but i knew if i spoke to her i was gonna break down in tears" i say tearing up.

shannon hugs me and rubs my back "come on jake.. she's hurting too.." she says then walks out i just stand in the same spot and let my tears flow out my eyes.