𝙞 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 - 𝙟𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙭 𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙠𝙖

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erika's pov

november 9th 2018 8:12 am

i wake up in bed.. another day i rub my eyes slowly and just memories of jake and i come flooding back into my brain.. i pull myself out of bed on the edge of tears.. i'm picking up thor today so that's a start.

i breathe out for a long time then i stand up and blink with memories or jake and i cuddling in my bed, i look at my bathroom door way and a picture of jake standing there with a towel wrapped around his waist is in my mind, i blink and clear my mind.

i go into my bathroom and do my morning routine, after 20 minutes of letting the face washes sit on my face i get int the shower and just sigh.

why is life so hard?.

i just want jake.

i love jake.

and only jake.

my tears come down then getting blended in with the water from the shower head, i just continue showering thinking about jake and i, once i get out and dry my face and body more tears shred down my face causing my eyes to be red.

i pull on my clothes and i walk downstairs to the girls, they look at me then instantly hug me knowing i've been crying i just cry into shannon's shoulder since cortney hugged my side.

"it's okay baby" cortney whispers in my ear "we're leaving in 2 hours to nashville!" shannon screams i smile a little and giggles, i wipe my eyes and begin vlogging, "what is up to everybody?!" i yell trying not to burst out into tears "today we're flying back home with the girls and i'm taking thor with me!" i scream and fake smile i put my camera down.

me and girls head to jake's house- the team 10 house and we park in front of the big statue bob and get out slowly, i look at one of the top windows, i see anthony i wave at him he smiles and waves back.. he's always been a big brother to me but he's younger than me, i then head inside and already hear yelling from the kitchen.

"i want all of her shit out this fucking house or im gonna bash each and everyone of you're heads in!" i hear obviously jake's voice "bro calm down" i hear jasper say one of his friends must live here now.

"i'm not gonna fucking calm you fucking put that shit on the fridge knowing i'm gonna be mad!" jake screams one more time.. shannon looks at me and nods.. i nod slowly "jake calm down my guy i didn't put it up" jasper says trying to calm him down.. he won't i'm the only person to make him calm down.

"who the fuck put the photo of me and erika on the fridge then?! you're the only person in here! what's next? a photo of my dead body?!" jake screams once again i then follow behind shannon into the kitchen hiding wearing an oversized hoodie, not jake's he took all of them back i just look down ignore everything and everyone.

"what's going? calm down" cortney says looking at jasper then at jake then back at jasper "he's getting pissed off that someone put a photo of him and erika on the fridge" jasper says "bro you put it on the fucking fridge! you know i'm hurting you fucking know! why do it?!" jake's still screaming of course.

"jake it was on the fridge when i came downstairs!" jasper starts yelling "guys stop! we're just here to pick up thor" cortney yells "thor is at the vet right now but anyways jasper you put the photo on the fridge!" he screams again, i just wanted this to stop but i know if jake sees me it will hurt him and destroy me inside.

"i can not believe you jasper.. i can punch you in the fucking face right!" jake yells i hear footsteps get closer to jasper then a chair falls, "okay no pushing jake! stop" then i hear jasper fall to ground.. i need to stop jake..

"jake!" i walk in front of the girls and jake looks at me.