The servant and the son

Tris POV

~~~1 month later~~~

I got out of hospital about a week ago (🎼🎶 sorry I had to) tobias never actually came to visit me and as the days went on I just got more and more depressed since then I've tried to commit suicide at least 10 times mostly with the drugs the doctors have me but once I tried to inject air into my blood stream but the doctors stopped me when they saw me doing it. Bitches.

I'm going to try tonight as well because I found a rope in Nita's room I don't know why so just yeah don't ask, but as you can guess I'm not leaving a note I might leave one to Nita because she has been getting nicer and nicer, on the other hand I might leave one for Peter because then I can express how much of an absolute colossal c*** he is, Eric and drew probably the same.

And Tobias well he can't care I mean he didn't come and see me then so why would he want to now, I'm just a fat slut that no one will ever love or have any feelings for apart from hate or mild dislike. I just need to find paper so I can write it and yes I know how to write I did go to school I wasn't totally deprived of a childhood.

The punishments haven't got any better, worse if anything, it's mostly kicking, punching, rape, stabbing me (stomach, avoiding any vital organs), and whipping me with a belt, it's also got worse with the metal abuse the words are cutting into me more than ever by now and it's all his fault.

~~~time lapse (yes 2 in 1 chapter is there a problem)~~~

It's around 5 now and everyone except Mary the gardener have gone out, I grab a pen and some paper

Dear Nita,

I know our background may not be great but recently you have been amazing even if it wasn't quite enough to stop this, I'm not really sure wether to tell you or not but I've been starting to think of you as a friend. Because not only do you help me, you help me without me asking, your personality has developed so much, you have grown into a beautiful young woman and anybody would be lucky to have you in their life. Peter may not be the best person in the world but he cares about you more than you can ever imagine and never let go off your brother because when you're like me you understand just how much it means to have a sibling, don't mess it up like I did I guess this is goodbye, I'll miss you.

Tobias if you ever get to see this then I just want to tell you thank you for making me feel a little less dead inside even if it was all fake and all acting I still want to make sure that you know, that no matter how hard life gets I will watch over you and be your guardian angle and watch over you from above always and forever... I think I love you.

And Peter well you're A COLOSSAL CUNT THAT DESERVES NO PLACE IN THE WHOLE OF HELL YOU'RE THAT BAD I FUCKING HATE YOU, THIS IS YOUR FAULT YOU'RE THE REASON IM DEAD!! YOU!!!!

Eric FUCK YOU!! YOU'RE A TWAT AND I HOPE YOU DIE A SLOW PAINFUL DEATH ALL ALONE!!!!

From,
Tris

I take the rope and make a noise then throw it around one of the beams on the ceiling, I put it round my neck and step off the chair, I hear a scream and then it all fades and I start smiling... nothing lasts forever even when you wish it would because the world will never play by your rules and it will smash you up bit by bit until its to much to handle

I guess this is it GOODBYE

A/N don't worry fourtris will be coming soon, on holidays atm so I should update a bit more if I don't update sooner then an early MERRY CHRISTMAS, is what I'm going to do. Also could anyone who reads this check out my other fanfic, it's called dauntless born and yh it's over used but mine has some personal twists in