where is she ?

Mrs Clark

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Jenny

I am sitting in the corner of my room, I don't even have tears left to cry so I just breathe in silence. Nate willow was rose boyfriend then... kinda of a friend to me before he tried to kidnap me in his house but now he is the messing boy.

The school seem difrent now, I know it's been four months since rose went missing since Nate  desepered..since I went here but I don't recognise anyone except Leah.

" Hi.." I find my self saying,I already like Leah personality and vibe in general but now that we been in this together I like her even more, sure she wasn't about to get kidnapped by anyone but we both lost our best friends and she helped the police somehow after finding out that Nate was that anonymous number and he is behind all of this.she looks at me for a couple of seconds before she finaly respond :" hi jenny."

I smiled at her then went to class , my life became an unbearable circle now school, home and school home and sometimes I visist Mrs Clark.

" Thank you for comming again jenny."  MRs Clark said with her usual sad smile.

" no problem do you need something? I can clean and do helpful stuff you know." I joke but she doesn't laught... understandable, she have her serious face and I feel like she want to say something important so I sit in the couch next to her.

" jenny you love Rose right?" The question itself surprise me and I answer immediately without a second of hesitations:" yes I do, I love her so much." She smile at my response before she ask me again:" to what level do you love her?" Now I am confused and all I say in response is:" as a friend" she giggle and give me a look like I said the most stupid thing I could possibly say.

" I meant can you kill for her?" The usual question is can you die for her but both of them will be inappropriate in this situation or in any situation really.

" yes I can." I don't know why I said that with so much confident when the truth is I can't I CAN'T KILL FOR ROSE OR FOR MY OWN LIFE.

My answer seem to make Mrs Clark happy or proud and even tho I don't understand anything I feel suddenly happy that I made my mother figure feel good about me. She kept asking me random questions about religions and belifs, good and evil, dead and life and it didn't bother me as much as I thought it would not that I thought about it in the first place.

After that conversation I went home like nothing had happened and it's true EVERYTHING is normal totally... normal.

" you visited Mrs Clark today?" Dad asked when we were alone in the dinding room wich happen often since his wife is working late these days for extra money.

" yes, she is feeling better I guesse, Lara and her daughter went back to their house and things are fine I think..." fine if we ignore the pain in my chest that start every time I think about rose or the weird conversation I had with her mom today.

" I think you should stop going there jenn..." I wait for him to finish before I react " this woman lost her daughter since four months and you visiting her
Everyday won't help her forget..." now I snap at him :"forget what? Her daughter? I spent my entire childhood with that family when you sir didn't give a fuck about me, sorry jenny work again sorry princess you can tell me if your not ready for this next step yet but this woman is kind and loving ..nonsense! You left me in a period of my life that I needed you I needed my dad and not a new mom who is clearly a bitch! You will never NEVER ask me or order me to cut my relationship with the only mother I know" I run to my room not wanting to face my dad disappointed look, I feel the urge to breathe French air. My lungs are burning so I open my room window and take a long breath before letting all out.