Nobody Compares

Prologue

Who would've ever known how much the pain would be... Just to think about saying good-bye was hard, but when push comes to shove, and you actually do have to say good-bye to that one person, it just got hard enough. All those times we shared together, all those days that had gone by so quickly. Every laugh, tear, moment was just incredible, and to think that now he's just gone, breaks my heart. I know that I'll be seeing him soon... But soon wasn't fast enough. We shared too much together.

I can't go past the place we met or had our first date. I can't listen to his songs anymore because if I do all I know is that my heart would just get too weak. Everytime I look on my phone it's a photo of us, and as much as I wanted to just change it, I couldn't. By now I had thousands of pitcures of him... Them... Us. Only little did I know how much they would really mean to me after such a small ammount of time. No matter what we went through together I know I love him.

Physical pain hurts, but emotional pain hurts the most. Feeling alone and weak, just makes me tired and I just want him here. I want him to wrap his arm around my waist as I fell asleep in his arms. I want to wake up and feel his warm face as he opened his eyes and gave me a kiss on my nose making me blush more than ever.

I feel like I havn't been out of bed in days... I havn't been to school or work, I don't even know how to get words to come out of my mouth anymore. There was just knots everywhere; My stomach, my throat, my heart. I still remember only that couple of days ago, standing at the airport and he gave me that one last hug and kiss on my forehead. He wiped away my tears as more fell down from his cheeks. I didn't want to let go of his arms and I wanted his hands to remain on my hips. I knew it would be hard to let go, but eventually I did. 

I watched as he walked onto that plane, not turning around to wave one last good-bye to me... Because I just knew that I would do the same thing; I wouldn't be able to turn back around and keep walking.

He made me feel something that no one has ever made me feel before.

I miss him.