" can I have your phone number?" He said as my eyes widened and questioned him " why? " " So that I can text you to play with me again , or knowing each other? " He replied. " Ok sure as long as you're not going to kidnapped me." I said.
It's all st...
We head back home , I can't stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks , cause I just lost my most important people , most precious woman , most kind woman in the world.
I lock myself in my room and cried. I heard notification on my phone. I look at it and cried more cause my wallpaper is my picture of eomma with me when I was highschool.
Her smile is the most beautiful , her smile is like the sunflower , it shines the whole world. I smiled between my cries.
I check the notification that I got , it was from Yeonjun. I bet he is worried right now.
Yeonjun: Babe , is it okay there?
Yeonjun: Are your family good there? Say hi to them! Especially your mother!
When he mentioned eomma , I cried so hard again.
Me: Babe , she's gone.
Yeonjun: Who?
Me: Eomma.
Yeonjun: You're joking right?
Me: No..
Yeonjun: I'm sorry to hear that😔.... Can you explain to me what happen to your mother?
I sigh as I wanted to tell him or not. I don't think twice and I just told him , I explained to him.
Yeonjun: Jagiya....I'm so sorry.
Me: It's okay , it's not your fault , I want to sleep now cause tomorrow I'll be going to eomma's grave.
Yeonjun: Okay jagiya....don't cry , I love you💘💕
Me: Love u more💘💞
I turn my phone off and prepare to sleep , after a minute , I fell asleep.
Next morning.
Somebody shake my body lightly , I opened my eyes and saw Oppa.
"Bin...get ready , we're going to eomma's grave remember?" He ask , I nod and gave him a small smile. He went out of my room , I went to my bathroom and take a shower.
I went out and saw a black outfit , I guess it's from appa. I wore it and I don't put any makeup on , cause I know I'll cry there.
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I went downstairs and saw them sitting on the dining table , the breakfast had been prepared , I sat down and ate my breakfast.
It feels very empty , eomma always start the conversation but no one talk now , the taste of the food is different from eomma's food , I don't say that I don't like it , but it feels really different , and this is the worst day of my life in the first day of Christmas.
We finished our breakfast and head to our car and drove off. We arrived at our destination.
After 27 minutes.
We finished and yes I cried so hard , sobbing so hard while holding eomma's favourite flowers.
I sat on side of eomma's funeral and cried , I put the flower on eomma's funeral. Appa said we have to leave now but I refused I wanna stay here , I said to appa that I'll be back later by taxi and he agreed.
I cried on my arms and said,
"Eomma , I hope you can hear me now , you know how I suffer seeing you like this? I cried so hard and I can't control my breath , I missed you already , I mean I didn't spent the whole day with you yesterday....I feel bad....I think we all will spent the Christmas together , but now it's incomplete , I'm so sorry if I ever make you disappointed , I'm sorry if I ever yelled at you , I know I'm late , I missed your kiss , I miss how you tell me a story every night , I miss the taste of your food , haha , I know appa didn't expert at cooking but appa's cooking skills is expert and that's because of you eomma , appa live you , last night I heard appa sobbing so hard while mumbling your name , we all cried in our own room , and eomma , I'm sorry for not telling but I have a boyfriend , I'm sorry eomma , I know you wouldn't allowed me to have a boyfriend , but I can't hold it , I have a crush on that guy , and he like me , and we date , but he is a nice person , he is caring and kind , his name is Yeonjun , Choi Yeonjun. I'm sorry again eomma if I have do something wrong to you , I know I don't tell you that time , and I'm very sorry!" I said as I wiped my tears , it's started to rain heavily. I kiss eomma's funeral , and stand up , I bowed and walked away.
I was at the side of the street waiting for taxi , I don't have an umbrella and I was soaked , then I saw a taxi , I wave at it and the taxi stop , I entered and tell him where to go.
I arrived at my home , I went infront of the door and rang the door bell , the door open revealing a girl.
"Who are you?" I said as I tilted my head. She smiled and hug me.
"I am Irene , Ji Hun's girlfriend." She smiled as she broke the hug. I smiled back.
"Oh hi Bin , wanna eat lunch?" Oppa said and I shook my head and went straight to my room and lock myself , appa is at work now , I know he didn't have energy to go for work , but he do it for us , also for eomma.
I took a quick shower and wore comfy clothes.
I went out of my room and went to my parents room , I looked at eomma's makeup desk , and there is it , our family picture , I took it and hug it while crying so hard then a paper slipped from the back of the frame.
I look at it and my name is on the paper and a date , the date is when I was still highschool I decide open it , I read the letter ,
Dear my pretty daughter , I wanna tell you something , I had a lung cancer , and I only have few years or month , I think I'll gave you this letter when you're a college , when I'm gone , make sure to eat , sleep , and please take care of Appa and your Oppa , they will took care of you as well , I already allowed you to have a boyfriend , cause I don't want to see you alone , and please married to a guy that loves you and care about you , and make sure his priority is you or his family , don't married to a man who is crazy for money and I'm sorry if I'm not good enough for you. I love you , don't forget me , I'll always watch you.
