Letters and Notes

Dear Dad

Dear dad

I always wondered why you left

Was it because of lust?

Or because of me and my brother?

Funny how you left us in the dust

Because we managed to survive

Your words struck me

Like a fist to the face

You’re the man of the house son

After saying we’ll be a family again

Paralyzing my dreams

Without seeing you did it

All I as is why?

Why did you lie to us

Why try and stitch my wounds?

When you’re the one who started it

Why did you tell me to be the man of the house?

Isn’t that your job?

Can’t you tell dad?

Can’t you see?

All of these years

All of these lies

Year after year

I waited for you to return

And we’d be a family again

Time after time

I believed you when you lied

Graduation day

You told me you’d be there

Just to see me walk across that stage

Where were you?

And all I got was a shoutout on facebook

Did you know how much that hurt?

Big brother and I waited and you never came

Now you’re gonna repeat that cycle again and again

Lying to the children you created

Saying I wanna see my child graduate

And never come

Why hurt us like you do?

Why be the reason for most of my falls

Why make me blame myself for eveerything

When you’re just as much to blame?

Why…?