[ Atsumu x Sakusa ] - Broken Magnets

Chapitre 13

" Omi-kun, just please listen to what I'm going to say "

[ Sakusa POV ]

I felt a pair of arms around my waist, and his head fall of my shoulder, before hearing those words. I wanted to run away. I was scared of what he was going to say. I didn't want to break again. Why is love so hard ? 

I didn't answer and waited for him to talk. 

" There's this person I like " He started, and already my face scowled, angry and sad at the same time. Sad because I knew it wasn't me. Angry because I believed it could of been. 

" I like him, but I feel like he's leaving me. Well, he's not, yet I feel like he is, because for some reason as soon as I try to close the distance between us, he opens it again. That person is amazing, and makes me smile even if he's difficult to get along with. He's important, and I want to be there for him, but all I feel like I'm doing is hurting him " 

I know how that feels...

I started crying again. I really wanted to listen to him, to help him, be there for him. But as I sobbed, I knew I wasn't going to be able to. A tear dropped on Atsumu's hand, and I felt him tense, before he turned me around so that I was facing him. 

" Omi Omi " He called my nickname softy, as if I was going to break. But I already was broken. Atsumu Miya, you really are a heart breaker. I though bitterly.

" Hey, look at me. What's wrong ? " He held my chin, so that I was staring into his brown eyes. 

" I can't. I-I'm sorry, I can't. I want to. I'm stupid. Why does it hurt so much ? " My vision was blurry. Atsumu tried to hug me, but I pushed him away. 

" D-Don't. Don't make this harder " I lowered my head, and bit my lip, trying to muffle the sounds I was making, in vain.  

" Make what harder Omi ? Tell me, I want to help " He murmured.

" You really are stupid " I was able to say between two sobs " Atsumu Miya, I'm sorry, but I don't think we can be friends anymore "

He took a step back. 

" W-What ? Omi, tell me what I did. Tell me. I'll do anything. Tell me why we can't be friends anymore " His voice resonated in the corridor, and I felt his confusion.

I took a deep breath to calm down. 

" Ok, I'll only say this once. After I do, promise me we will never, ever talk about it again. We will never mention this conversation " He didn't answer, so I spilled my heart to him.

" Atsumu, I'm really sorry I hurt you. That was never my intention. But I'll never be able to be the friend you want me to be, or that you deserve "

" I- " I cut him off.

"Let me finish.  I realized that a while ago. I'm greedy. If we continue being friends, I'll just want more. But I know you don't feel the same. You like Kita, I heard you. But I don't mind. I want you to be happy Atsumu, and I'm not the one who'll be able to make that happen, no matter how much I try. I like you Atsumu, I really do. I never saw you as just a friend, but I only realized that now. Not once did I ever think of you as only that. And that's why I didn't want you to get close Atsumu"

" I know it's stupid, and selfish, but I can't. I can't continue this. It hurts me every time you talk about him, and then touch me. I shouldn't of let my barriers down, and now I've learnt my lesson. So, this is the end. I'm sorry, I wish this couldn't of been different."  

You must think I'm pathetic, don't you ?

But then, be took a step forward, and said words I was sure I was imagining. 

" Sakusa Kiyoomi, I never saw you as just a friend either "