Metaphors from Mars (Poetry)

Maybe This Time I'll Let You Go

~1:05am
06-06-20

Why do I do these things to myself
Why did I allow you to do what you did to me
I knew and you knew this was temporary
And yet you still drag it out
Asking questions you already know the answer to
Flipping things around turning them on me
Asking questions you don't want to know the answers to
You should have just said it then
I would have been fine
But no first you had to try
And get your way
I wonder if you even care about me
I told you that you were my sunshine
My only light in that day
You tell me that you love me
Beg me to stay
If you knew that you were going to end it
If you knew that this was wrong
Then why keep going
I knew it should've ended long ago
But I couldn't just let you go
I let you fool me again and again
You know we can't just be friends
You must take enjoyment in building me up
Over and over again
Just to tear me down
You attack me when I'm vulnerable
You kick me when I'm down
Why not just tell me
I get it, we not the best together
You should have just said it's over
Now you can go on to the next
Fuck up their shit and then complain
That there's a mess
I bet that I'm just on the back burner huh?
I knew there's someone else
I convinced myself that I was the problem
I changed for you
I apologized for my past wrongs
And forgave myself
But it was you
Your the problem
Every problem there ever was always lead back to you
Because you just didn't feel right
Because you were bored so you started a fight
What's wrong with you
What's wrong with me
Why don't I hate you
Not even a little
Not even at all
Why can't I just renounce you
Admit that your terrible
And move on
But I can't
Your attached to me
Your such a leech
You always come crawling back
To suck me dry and fill your ego
Maybe this time I learned my lesson...