Goddammit.
You weren't supposed to do this.
It's not supposed to be you.
You weren't meant to worm your way into my head like this.
You shouldn't be the one making me laugh.
You shouldn't be the one walking me home.
You shouldn't be the one I turn to, the one I try to keep happy and the one I'm always talking to you.
You weren't meant to look at me with those eyes and drag me down into them.
Stop being tender and funny and kind and stop it with those eyes and those glances and
stop
loving
me.
Get out of my head.
GET OUT!
because for once
for once in my life
I didn't mean
to fall in love.
I can't even tell if I am. Is that what this is? I've been caught and tossed end on end in the waves and I can't tell which way is up and the water is filling my eyes and mouth and nose and I need to breathe and I can't breathe I can't breathe
You weren't part of the equation.
Now you are.
And I don't know what to do.
I think I'm past it and then you do something tiny and why is it always the smallest things that make the biggest impact?
Goddammit, raven.
I can't even tell you I love you, because I do but I might love my saviour more, and I think I still do, and it's unfair to you.
I can't even tell if it's platonic anymore.
Goddammit.
You weren't supposed to do this.
I was never meant to love you.
YOU ARE READING
Song For A Winter Sky
Random"Thread by thread I come apart. If brokenness is a work of art, surely this must be my masterpiece."
